Man , i'm declaring that i love you and it's never ever bores me

Baby has been such worried about me , i'm having a runny nose and a sore throat . He keeps reminding me to take a rest and take a medicine. Oh god ! I have my own doctor . hehe . This morning woke up around 9.30 am , and called him on the phone. He was all caring and worried at the same time . Baby was really funny yesterday night - HAHA . He was " oh , rest hunnay ? " , " take your medicine " , " go to sleep " . He was blabbering , haha :D Oh that was funny :-p

I'm reviewing my two thousand nine , and i'm telling you my story

Here's what happen in my 2009 . I know every people , has other stories than mine. Well here goes mine :)

January

The start of the first new day of school . I had to go a new school , and i felt miserable because it's a new environment and at the same time , me and Dann had an issue and we broke off . Well , the relationship of breaking up never spent long . Because three days of being apart , we were back together . I met new friends . But at the same time , i miss my old friends , my old school . Mummy celebrated her 50th birthday at our new home . We got a new cat , Manja was its name . And the new school wasn't that hard - they were all friendly . Plus i made new friends , and they are so cool :) hehe . And also , we had an exchange student in our class , Hannah .

February

The month of love - Valentine :) I celebrated mine at home on the phone , with Dann . Sports day was near in that month . I participated in kawad kaki and yeah i got tanned big time that moment . But i had fun . Then it was all about school , new friends , and studies .

March

oh ! Sports day , the first time of having a sports day at a new school . I made friends , so best friends :) haha . And yeah , i had fun . I get to wear shorts at this school as its an all girl school - no boys :) hehe . And exam , monthly exam was held . And i guess i did a good job at the first month of having an exam in form 4 syllabus . Even my physic failed , i tried to get good marks. School holidays for one week . Dann on the 16th March turned 17 officially . Now he can a drive a car :) HAHA .

April

April , what happend in April ? i can't remember .

May

OMG ! i can't remember what happen in May either , WHAT ?!

Jun

JUUUUNNNNNNNNN :D huh . i can't remember . Right two months of having a life , i don't remember anything ! OMG OMG omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg OMG ! :| Oh wait now i remember , i had my mid year exam :) haha .
July

Oh i remember this month . I had a friend betraying me , haha :| Fun aite ? It's over Dann - a boy , and i think it's very stupid of you to do that - but i forgive you . As what friends do ? :) School holidays 2 weeks of it :) First time of going with a friend from Ipoh :) Diba was her and Ija also :) I had fun ,

August

Monthly test was held . Had a new cat , Robin Hood if i was not mistaken it was in August . Independence day was celebrated , it was the 52 years of independce . School holidays , one week again :) HAHA . And oh ! I joined this event on Pelancongan Pelajar and got 2nd place in state . That was fun :-)

September

Celebrated my 16th birthday with my closest friends in McD . Well i know its not posh , for the posh party and thinking on my 21st Birthday :) Daddy celebrated his 54th birthday too . But he was on the 29th while i was on the 10th . Father and Daughter have the same month of birthday :) hehe . Got my birthday present , it was so wicked this year . I got a present from mummy which was a piano of special edition , daddy gave me my own DSLR 1000D :)

October

I can't remember what happen in this month . All i know was - school , on the phone with Dann and friends :) haha . I had my year end exam .


November


Ahhh , November :) hehe. It was me and Dann 2nd year together . OMG OMG OMG omg omg omg :)) And for the first time , i failed my chemistryy , aaarrhhhhh :| I was so frustated this month . And yeah it was the end of school year :)


December


School holidays was during this month . It was all about me and the holidays .


Oh well , my year of 2009 was kinda boring if i review it back . But if you read my blog every month and every day , you can see what happen in my life its all about me , mama and papa , Dann and my friends :) I hope my 2010 will go well , as 2010 i'm a candidate of SPM . Erkkk .

It doesn't mean a first breakup means it's the last breakup

Oh ! Take a deep breathe hunnay . I'm still with my boyfriend here . It's only a headline - no worries aite , love ?

Today is the most boring day ever , i think.
Mama and i was like two people who couldn't sit still - we were out and about every 3 hours . HAHA :D
And today , i had a morning wake up call from my kitten , Coco Chanel . Special much ? Yeah i know.
Goodnight . XOXO , lovers .
And oh , i have another one day to update about everything that has been done in 2009 . New year a new life .

I've been crying alot nowadays should i stop and except that everything is not the way it is

Had movie date with papa , watched AVATAR . And yeah - it was killing movie , because it was too good too be true.
Baby got hi s letter that i sent to him , yeaya :D !
I'm feeling sad right now , and i wish that you can feel what i feel right now .
I wish that right now i had done my SPM papers , and i can find my own path of life .
I can't live this way , sometimes.
If i was been bought to life , just to be blamed - why should i live ?
People make me down , and right now i can't even smile :|

You know that i love you boy hot like Mexico

Yesterday night was so hot - baby being so flirtatious as i requested . Just like the old days , the moment when he proposed me to be his. Awww :) That was so romantic baby , ILoveYou.
I woke up to late , 12 noon once again. ergh . Mama was pissed.
Tomorrow maybe heading the movies with papa . Has he wants to watch Avatar . I was thinking of watching Muallaf , see how it goes .
And oh baby , did i tell you that your so romantic when your with me ?

Not everyone is lucky in their world , that's why we were made for two

Went to Penang on Christmas Day , did some shopping there.
Lately i've been to hook with shopping.
Slow talk with my parents about my life , and they understand so yeah - it's a good thing.
Now the only thing i'm doing is , opening my books before school re-opens.
I only have another 8 days till school starts , i'm going to spend it wisely.
I wanna watch Muallaf , which is directed by The Late Yasmin Ahmad .
Daddy is thinking of watching movies this Monday - Avatar / Muallaf / Alvin and The Chipmunks . HA ! Movie marathon i guess then ,
I've been aching and aching , i think i'm sick.
Baby , has been to kind for me . I love him.

I'm proud to say that i got you every moment

Mama just made a stupid joke in the car.
From hearing " let's do it . let's do it " , mama heard " less duit , less duit " which means less money , less money . HAHA
Merry X'mas people :)
Heading to Penang tomorrow morning :)

I'm thinking of getting myself a BMW secondhand car the 5 seires at the age of 18

I'd made a cover , a song from Kings of Leon , Use Somebody . ENJOY :)
My hunnay is to sweet than sugar pie these days , i love you baby :)
And i had supper with ma and pa at Kedai Mamak , roti kaya and teh o ais for me .

I just won the Oscar for screaming the loudest

So i screamed in the cinema , and people laughed at me when i accidentally screamed at the wrong scene.
I was screaming the loudest in the cinema.

So i have a boyfriend.
I think i'm lucky to have him. I love you .

So i like donuts.
It makes me happy and now i'm missing eating donuts.

So i think that someone should speak up.
You should never suffocate others , loser.

So you think that i can be happy always ,
well not actually .

So i sneeze a lot nowadays ,
Am i having a flu ?

The stars above us are the symbol of our love it shines brightly above us

If the stars and the moon can linger at night , why can't the sun do the same at night ?
If the boy loves someone dearly and truly , why must he listens to his friends ?
If the girl says the she loves the boy , it's true - she's not lying.
If the world had stopped in a second , i'll pray for a miracle to happen.
If i had a superpower , i'll make things right in the world - but i guess it's impossible.
If i could count the ways to be a good daughter , i'll make my parents happy .
If i had my old friends right here , i will understand that they miss me .
If i had million dollars no ringgit , i'm thinking of investing it :)
If my mother says that can't do such things , why bother doing it ?
If my father says follow your dreams but you must study hard , i'll go and achieve my dream.
If a friend told me that they are my bestfriend , i'll believe in it.
If i could see my boyfriend , hear him , smell him , be close to him - it's something that i always been wishing for.

I'm on high with every love i have for him

Whack. It has been ages updating my blogger. Liar ! The last time i updated was on Thursday, now it's Saturday . Well , it's not that long. Anyway , i've already watched Talentime , a movie by The Late Yasmin Ahmad. The movie was a thumb up , i was touched by the story line. A deaf indian boy with a malay girl - who fell in love and in the end they unite to become lovers. A boy who lost his mother on the weeks of prepration to be in the talentime , just to fulfill his mother promises. Touching and yet funny story because of Harith Iskandar . HAHA :D

Saturday morning - i mean 12.30 am until 3 am was really fun with him on the phone . He got home early from his aunt's house. He was the only person in his own house while his family was still at his aunt's house. We talked like we use to during the holidays. Like hours and hours and hours . HAHA :D We talked and talked , i felt close to him last night . I was smiling the whole time talking to him. Then he started singing . He started singing to me on the phone , awwwww - sweet :) I love you baby . Then we were singing to the old memories like songs from the late Sudirman and also The Late P.Ramlee . He was so funny last night :) hehe ,

Today , Saturday. Wedding's invatation were being fulfilled. We headed only 2 invitations because papa had a tootache. Oh well , that was all about today :)

I was crying in the middle of the night

ergh . Yesterday night , i can't sleep. I had a nightmare the day before and it's hard to sleep. But i cried - that was a bonus. My heart is saying the wrong things , it makes me hurt and sad . And the conclusion is i cry . I cried. I told Dann about my nightmare , he was supporting , but at the same time " you better get a goodnight sleep if you love me " . Well i did , but it's not a TOO GOODNIGHT one.

I never had this kind of feelings on a moment. Well anyway , today it started my day has waking up so late that i can call my breakfast to breaklunch (! ) . Mama is so pissed off with me , during this holiday . I rearly open the book . You can call me , lack of studying right now. Papa is thinking of going to Kuala Lumpur again this Saturday . Pfft. I wish we're going to Kuala Lumpur on the 25th.

Malaysia won against Vietnam . That was relief after these long yearssssss . Yipee ! :) And oh , Malaysia footballer is rather hot and sexyyyy :D HAHA . Sorry .

Dann , i miss you . I miss talking to you in the middle of the night.
He's busy with his family gathering this Saturday. Hope he's fine. I can't stop eating while he can't stop taking a nap. AHAHHA . See the difference between us ? That's why i love him (:

Right now the only i thing i can think is :-

Is hard to forget your ex - but in my world , it easy to forget my ex . Because i'm over him. I have Dann now :)
I'm eating too much.
I'm watching too much of cartoon.
And i think your a looser.
HAHA.

You're just to nice to me is it true ?

Sorry for not updating my blogger yesterday. I had the most tired day of my life. I got back from Kuala Lumpur yesterday.

What happen in Kuala Lumpur on Monday :

# Papa had his day off.
# We went to Shah Alam concorde to see papa friend - then right after that i went to Mall and met up with Atiq and Izzah. Nick was supposed to come , but he was to late that i have to leave already. I met them about 30 minutes only.
# We were heading to KLGCC next after that , meeting up with papa's best friend and having lunch with him and his family.
# Me and ze boyfriend had a fight. He said sorry and i already forgot about it.
# That was Monday. Monday mayhem.

Tuesday

ergh. started out mama called me to wake up and have breakfast before heading to KL .. again. The was this function that we had to attend to in The Oriental Hotel , Kuala Lumpur. It was fun to hear a lecture but it got bored after 30 minutes later. HAHA. sorry.

I think i'm in love with the book i'm reading right now :)

I never knew that Kuala Lumpur never sleeps at night

Guess where i'm at - i'm Petaling Jaya in Hilton. Around 10 am morning , we were heading to KL. Papa and mama had a wedding reception to attend at Hilton PJ. Then we arrived around 12 pm. Around 1.45 pm , we took a taxi to Mid Valley. Oh - it's good to be home again :) HAHAHAH. It's a normal thing that Mid Valley is always full of people heads . HAHA. It's never has been quite. I thought of buying some clothes but instead i got myself a book. A book that is like Twilight. Except its a wolf and human which falls in love. It's kinda intresting actually. Mama and papa did some shopping.

As you know i was in Mid Valley. Nick , my best friend for a long long time - he was in Mid Valley ! I never knew actually. He was walking in Mid Valley same as me ! :D OMG ! I can't stop the OMG actually , i don't know why. But it's still OMG because of Nick was in the same building as i were. And it was really weird , that i never get to see him. Well actually , it's not weird because Mid Valley was full of people - duhhhhh ! Oh Nick , hope we can really meet soon :) Which is really meet :D hehe,

We shall never be apart - i love you till death do us a part

Ergh. Today is effing tired . Woke around 4.30 am to go to Kuala Lumpur - Ampang . My cousin , Kak Leen is getting married today . Its the naik pelamin ceremony. I wore a violet kebaya and yes i think i look good in it :P HAHAHA :D I really had fun and i was running around with my DSLR to capture the perfect moments of the ceremony. Then after the ceremony , we had to go to back to Ipoh. We had a function. So it's like from Ipoh to Ampang then Ipoh. Tiring much i guess . Ergh. I need to get some sleep . Goodnight humans :) XOXO
P.s:// Right now - my aunts and my cousins are all karaoke at my aunt's house in Ampang. I wish i was there :|

One day three blog post you can may kill me with your drugs.

one day three blog post ? Call me crazy you may but i don't give a damn about it. Yeah you can say i'm having my PMS. I'm sorry. But it's the truth. Anyway , baby is having the cold. He's in a fever circular. Hope you get well baby. Today i had a 2 hour practice/lesson of piano - and i felt like i was dying when it came to the last piece of my piano score. HAHA.
Accuracy + alot of notes + beat in a bar + fingering - practice at home + tired = grand piano .
I'm right now to tense to think about anything. Tomorrow i'm going to Kuala Lumpur , Ampang as my cousin is getting married. I didn't went this morning there for akad nikah , because papa had to work. But i'm very sure today morning event went well :)
O alrighty humans , night and have a nice day tomorrow .
XOXO

You have the greatest voice which makes me secure when i'm with you

I woke up to late this morning - i woke up around 12.00 noon. Call me crazy . I had my lunch instead of my breakfast. God.I had a rough night. My blog post before this one - seems dark and frustrated. Ze boyfriend , we had issue before that. He was so mad at me, and i kept saying sorry. Then i had a breakdown. I cried. About life - it's so complicated. Thanks to him , i got over the problem. He made me get over it. He was so supportive. I couldn't ask for more. RAWR. He really really really - cared for me . That's why i love you , baby.
And sometimes i just can't be in the picture anymore.

I tell him everything so that we don't have secrets between us

right now , i feel so uncomfortable. I feel like i'm coward stuck in somebody's body which is confident. I feel like i'm a 3 year old , i'll sulk if i don't get something , and this is not right. I don't think i'm at a correct age right now. I wear clothes that comforts me and i don't follow trends. I spend all of my allowance on mobile phone credit. But i don't care. I spend most of my times , online . And even my boyfriend , gets mad at me because i'm lacking of studying.

Why don't you just agree with me when i tell you that your sweet and romantic

Oh oh oh oh , yesterday night was so freaking romantic. As you know , it was our 2 year 1 months together. Right - on Wednesday night , i had a dream where i was on the phone with Dann , ze boyfriend and he was singing to me on the phone. But before that we had a little fight in our dream - then mama heard all about it. Then right after a couples of hours , he called me up and said sorry and started singing to me a song from Anuar Zain. Then i had a quick alert - i was out of the bed right after that. It was only a dream. Chish.

So yesterday night , around 11 pm i called him before an hour before our anniversary. I said that i want a special request. And he said what - and i told him that i wanted him to sing for me just like in my dream ! He was laughing and kept on smiling over the phone. He never agreed but he was like " hee . hee . hee . i love you . bye. " HAHA. That was mean - but i wait .

The clock strike 12.30 am , i called him up and " Happy Anniversary baby/sayang. I love you so much more than anything. Thanks for being there for me and thank you for everything. I love you sayang / baby ". Then i was like , baby sing to me - Anuar Zain (?) He was like " Sayang , i'm sorry but i really forgot his songs. " I nearly cried , and he was like " ok ok ok , i try my best. " Then he sang - he sang the song in my dream " Lelaki ini " and " Ketulusan Hati" . Awwwww - my man is so freaking romantic. HAHA. sorry ladies. Baby started to sing - and i nearly cry . I love you , baby. Then there was this bonus song he sang - now that song was much more sweet and meaningful . Garrrr .

And yesterday night , he also told me that he's starting his work soon. I'm going to miss him :(

but yesterday night , was so much romantic. Thanks :) I love youuu ,

Je'taime part " there's always me and you "

OMG ! I can't believe it it's already 2 years 1 month :) Hehe , baby i love you so much.

We've been through a lot. Our parents caught us together , gave us a yell and we're still together. Even the gloomy sky is above us , i know you that you will always be there for me. I can still remember our 2nd date , i had feeling that of something is bugging and you were there right beside me - you held my hand and comforted me. I mean i wanted to cry but you never let me to do so. It's interesting to you have in my life actually. I can't predict without you in my life.

Do you still remember when you purposed me to be yours ? It was 9.02 pm , and you purposed to me. I never thought a guy would say something nice to before they purposed. You told me that i was the one. Aren't you sweet ? In our relationship , we had ups and downs. Everybody does right baby ? You still here with me , until now and forever. We had fights , quarrel and stupid little fights that actually is cute - but we are still together.It's incredible actually.

I will always cherish every moment i have with you. If one day , we'll get married - hahahaha - i'll stay with you forever :) We can't predict anything in life. But i can feel that you will stay with me forever and ever. That's why i love you.

Mother told me not to swear

Today morning i had quick alert. I don't know why. But i was up around 8.45 am , then i went to sleep back as i was still sleepy. Then right after that ze boyfriend text me and said he had a headache. I tried to comfort him. Then i was out of the bed , brushed my teeth and had breakfast. Breakfast , right something start of the day - but i had a quick meal and sat down infront the tv. Then mama told me that my kebaya is already done. So we went , took my bath and i was out of the house. Took it and we went out and about today. I online on my via mobile phone - it was my first time and now i already download facebook via mobile in my application. Something in mind that i was really not sure about it. Why do i feel guilty on others problems ? Why do people cannot be patience ? Why do people judge others to easily ? Why do mama say that i want to get married ? Mama i'm sixteen only i have a long way to go . HAHA. I'll get married when time comes :P HAHAHAHH. And oh! Why do i love my boyfriend so much ?

So what if the princess fell in love with the Aladin ?

Papa came home from work with a CD that he got. The CD was Chopin' the talented and famous piano composer. I played it on my stereo Hi-Fi , and yeah it was really fun hearing his music. Someday i'll try to play pieces from Chopin'. Today i sat home - i didn't went to library today as Naddie was feeling the blues.Pity her. I studied chemistry and add maths today at home. Oh God ! Why does the school holidays need to end so soon ? :| I still end my vacation here and also some fun with my friends. And Oh! It was a sweet thing that ze boyfriend doing to me :) And yeah , baby i really appreciate it. I love you more than anything.

I've thought you knew the difference between the lamb and the lion

Debussy, i just listened to his piano arts today and i think - classical piano music is much more awesome than modern piano art. I mean the accuracy and dynamics are much much much more. Modern piano music are nice to listen when you're bored while classical music is when you can listen to it everyday without feeling bored. The feeling of it and listening to is different. Debussy , Claire De Luna is a song of romance with the dynamics are put in p ( soft) , mp ( moderate soft) and it's like lullaby. As you know Claire De Luna is one of the original soundtrack of Twilight. It was the scene were Bella went up to Edward's room and asked him what has been listening to , she clicked on the Hi-Fi then Debussy song was tuning out. That song is Claire De Luna. Right after i heard the Claire De Luna from Debussy , i tried to search for the music score of the song , the Wa-laaahh ! Got it . And i'm trying my best to play the song , as the school holidays , and i have nothing to do . I can try to figure out how to play. I got the first 8 bars and now is the rest until the finish.

Today i went to the library with Naddie. Studying. We studied Sejarah and Additional Mathematics. I've arrived there early , and guess what ?! The library was totally packed - because of form 5 student. They have Chemistry paper tomorrow , which is the last paper for the science stream. So that's why the library was totally packed by students. We did not had a place to sit. And it was so frustrating. I was bummed. I had to walk in the library and find a place to sit which there was not even one single place. Every table was booked by people. Ergh. Then we sat near the book shelves for a moment - we had chair but had no table. Interesting. Then Naddie wanted to take a walk , so i said okayh . As she was walking , she saw a table that was empty ! OH Thank God :) Now , the back bone that had hurt was better right after that. Then we've studied until 3.45 pm. I went home early , as mama wanted to go somewhere with me. Tomorrow i'm going to library again - to study Physics. Me and Naddie , i had invited Diba but she's not replying my text - so never mind.

Some lessons that i must understand

? Not every guy is a good guy .
? People likes to fall in love.
? Boyfriends sometimes can be the opposite as the other guys act and girlfriends to.
? Boyfriends can be really be there for us if we know how to treat them.
? Not every girl is shy.
? Breakups can really hurt.
? The rain is pouring down every afternoon.
? Even we failed in life that doesn't mean its the end of our lives.

I've just made two strangers became in love with one another

Oh God ! Yesterday night i was screaming and squeaking on the phone with ze boyfriend. You wouldn't know what happen ? They are both my best friends - Ndde and Aq , i got them to be friends at first and now i know they are together !!! OMG effin' , i nearly cried yesterday night. Ndde is still happy and can't stop smiling the whole day and i guess it goes the same as her boyfriend , A . HAHA. They are too cute to be true. I can't wait them to declare the three words to each other " I love you ". Then right after they had become a couple - i called up ze boyfriend and i was screaming , squeaking and can't stop laughing until i felt my cheeks were red and warm. As i screamed and squeaked , he was like "why , sayang ? what happen ?! " , but i kept on squeaking until his ears where kinda deaf - he gave me a serious tone of " Sayang." . Right he was anxious to know what happen . And i was like " They are together !! They are officially couples ! " And he was , " Oh really ? WOW !! Congrats :) " HAHA . BTW , he was happy for them too as i was happy for them also. Oh yesterday night was something magical :) I couldn't believe that i made them a couple. HAHA :D

Right today what was on mind , let me laugh and take a look back for a moment .

# why does people think that were pretty ?
# I'm fat a person , i got to cut down my calories.
# Why does the world need bad people ?
# Why does this kueh taste funny ?
# Why do people talk back about others ?
# Why do you think that i need you in my life ?
# Why do say that your my bestfriend , but in the end you talk bad about me ?
# I love my boyfriend and i hope you come to me in my dreams.
# Why do you think that pretty people can be models and why not plus size people ?
# Why do have to under estimate my studies just because i didn't show the real me ?
# Why do i need a new wardrobe ?
# I need something to wear on my date with ze boyfriend , soon.
# I'm running out of money right now.
# I'm going to run in heels this Saturday.
# Why do people are made into boys and girls , and sooner or later they become one ?

Hey, get your retard at the nearest Harrods

Without you by Pixie Lott

Today let me see - i called up ze boyfie in the morning around 10.05 am , as he wanted me to wake him up or in other words be his wake up call. I called him up , then we talked on the phone before i had my bath. As you can say that : my day had started from him. He said sweet things and even made me giddy and flirty with him. That's him alright :)

Two is better than one by Boys like Girls ft. Taylor Swift

Listening to this song , makes me tingle and think about him everyday. I've watched HSM3 today on Disney Channel. Right, Zac Efron is so dang hot . It makes me go head over heels . Is he like , getting hotter every single day ? Does his girlfriend know about it ? Right , he's to hot to be true. I had pizza while watching the movie , and i think i took way to much quantity slices of pizza which was 3 slices ! OMG ! i'm gonna be fat D: Today afternoon i went out with mama and papa , we did some shopping. I bought some books , which was reference books and some exercise book. Not too much of it. Right now , i can't stop sneezing.

BTW , people are having problems.
BTW , friends are always there for us.
BTW , i think my friend is in a big major crush.
BTW , i think i'm physcopath because i keep online his myspace account.
BTW , be careful what we wish for.
BTW , i think i'll go for sigma lense.
BTW , i think i need to get out from here.
BTW , i miss ze boyfriend so much.

I left my heart in his dream yesterday night

I watched New Moon already :) At last.It been weeks , i've been moaning about it - and today i had the chance to catch it. HEE :B Ware wolves are so dang hot and hot hot heat i tell you. With 6 pax on their bodies , i have drools on them and also i'm struck with it. HAHA :D The movie is rated is 4 out of 5 stars. I don't know why , it must sound stupid but something is missing. Well , not everything is missing - still had the romantic , love , sweet and yet charming scene. I'm kind of dissapointed actually , by watching the making of - it gave goose bumps , but watching it is a whole new subject.
Well , not everything we predict it's going to better right. Some of them are , but not just yet. I think i'll colour my nails. Weird. It just popped in my head. Today -i had piano class. It's the first time i'm playing on a grand piano. Which gives a little fright because it's a grand piano and the sound is much better quality and pressing every single white keys gives me goose bump - it's heavy ( slighty heavy ) Ze boyfriend handphone has been flooded. I pity you baby. It happen yesterday night, his phone just " plooop " in a basin full of water. I miss him. Yeah you can say that i'm crazy about my boyfriend so much that i can't pick whether penguins can sing or not :F

You make think i'm crazy but i'm crazy in love

[/]We can't be part , no matter what. He loves me so deeply and truly until he has a feeling that of " i-love-you-deeply-and-nobody-can-take-you-away-from-me.I promise " kind of way.It's called love in madly.

So yesterday night, i didn't update my blogger for some reason. Oh! Yeah , i was on skype with Anis. I was telling her about our best friend crush (!). Me and Anis was so happy for our best friend. As its the first time A (our bestfriend) getting in these situation.So cheers to you buddy ! :D

On Wednesday night , me and him we had a little fight. And we nearly broke up which we did in about 10 hours and 45 minutes approximately . Man , i tell you - i was half dead crying. And i could feel my heart and lungs were being stabbed so deeply with a knife. Coco chanel , my little kitten came up to me on the bed and slept right beside me while Robin Hood , my other cat was sleeping like an elephant (!) HAHA. We had silly fight , actually not silly but incredibly huge - he was yelling at me and i was yelling at him as he accused me for something i didn't do. Yeah , he was mad. SO mad , until every single word i told him, he never took a damn' out of it. HAHA. So the next morning ( Thursday , which was yesterday) , he called me up . I picked it up . The first time he called me , i was like " Yeah , what do you want ? " . Sound so harsh , aite ? Well yeah. Then he was " nothing " , then he put down the phone. O-oh!I made a mistake , then i called him up. I asked him whether he needs me in his life back. And he said " yes , i do need you in my life " . *AWWWWWWWW* . He propsed me again. And yes - i'm still with my boyfriend and i'm not single.

And yesterday , Thursday -- nothing happen actually. Except for :
[]Warewolves are damn' hot
[]i think i should start studying.

I'm so giddy right now :)

[/]I've got my brand new lens today , 50 mm USM lens canon :)
[/]I took some photos today with it. And they are some pictures above. And more uploaded at Flickr

your punch is such a joke then you left me speechless

[/]I've ordered my 50mm USM Lens for my DSLR.
[ ]It's coming on Wednesday :)
[/]I love my boyfriend so much .
[ ]I can still hear my heart pounds everytime i hear his voice .
[ ]Being with him makes my heart tingles every now and then.

according to ze boyfriend i make him happy

[ ]I need to slim down myself.
[/]Can't wait for Kak Leen's wedding day :)
[/]I miss ze boyfriend.
[ ]I love the Owl City.
[/]I ate too much today.
[/]I heart rendang tok daging.
[/]I took less photo today. Nothing was interesting :|
[/]Skype with Atiq .
[/]Yesterday night - skype with Qristina , my girlfriend. She looks pretty now ;)
[ ]I need a clutch.
[/]My finacial problems are over - for a moment.
[ ]I need new shoes and mama has agree me for buying new shoes :) Thank you mama.
[/]Mama is having pain in her leg.
[ ]Coco Chanel is growing up. Being more cute is Coco Chanel.
[/]I need someone to talk to right now.
[ ]Dad thinking of buying a new car.
[ ]While i'm thinking of buying a macro lense. Papa - i need new lense ? :( *puppy face.
[/]IM with Izzah :) She told me things that Nick never told me :P HAHAH :D

Even i'm sixteen i still act like a little child

[/]I hate people for having a busy life right now.
[/]I miss my boyfriend , Dann .
[/]I want things to be the way it use to be.
[/]I miss my buddies back in Shah Alam - Mira , Najlaa , Nick and Atiq
[ ]I hate myself for being this way .
[/]I hate myself for not watching New Moon , yet.
[ ]I hate myself because i'm trying to record a new cover.
[/]I love myself because i love my parents and the boyfriend.
[ ]I love myself acting like a 3 year old kid.
[/]I heart London - and i wish i was there right now .
[/]Even the doctor , what's the problem.
[ ]I like being sick, and i'm sure that someone will be mad after this.
[/]I like being pampered.
[/]I like to kiss my cat :) HAHA.
[/]I wish I had legal driving license, so that I can drive and every week or 2 weeks in a month i'll be in Shah Alam cracking jokes with my buddies.
[ ]I wish the whole wide world stop criticizing.
[ ]I wish that music could be part of my life , and not a part time job.
[ ]I wish that after SPM i'll be going to London and Birmingham. I miss there .
[ ]I wish that i a lot of money so that i'll be happy and i can shop every fortnight till i drop and having a starbucks coffee in other hand.
[/]I wish that i had the time to spend some more quality with papa. I miss my younger childhood day.

* [ ] - sometimes life is not fair and it also means empty. " I leave it blank first ".
[/] - Current things in life that is happening and thinking that i still have the time to do these.

Don't you go and under estimate me of doing this

Mama is so mad at me about me not following them going to Kuala Lumpur. Now - get over it. Yeah i love you guys and i'm very tired of having fights. I might be the girl that doesn't suite to be girl , but sorry i'm already one. And i don't act like a girl , i have a atittude of a boy sometimes. Well sorry behaving that way. Today i had additional mathematics class , and that was the end of the session of year 2009. So i'll might be teacher for next class of Additional Mathematics on the first week of school :) Today i didn't went to library , people came to my house to see mama. She's a very a busy women right now.

i'm so bummed that my parents went shopping without me

I'm so freaking bummed about what happen . That's right . My parents went shopping but without me. Because at first mama asked to me stay home and no need to follow them to Kuala Lumpur. Then the morning of going to Kuala Lumpur , mama asked me to get dressed as she wanted me to follow but instead of following them - i'll be staying at the lobby of the hotel that they are going for a fashion show function. Who wants to stay at the lobby hotel for hours of doing nothing ?! So i didn't follow . I went to sleep back , then mama call from Kuala Lumpur saying that she's at the hotel just in front of Pavillion !!!! :| I was so bummed that i nearly cried. I mean i need a clutch and a new pair of shoes. Don't you know that i need them , i'm having crisis here plus there's a sale. I was psst off , knowning that they're back from Kuala Lumpur with bags in their hand of going shopping . Mama bought me 2 kebaya and a cake from secret recipe . Like the cake will cure my heart . Thanks a lot , i love you guys loads !

You thought i had superpowers because i can figure out what's wrong with people .

Err , i think i'm not feeling well . My head feels like i've been knocked by a door and it's a bummer ! I'm having headache to randomly. And i think i need a rest. My day started out has a little bit gay inside of me. Woke up and went in the toilet to get my day started. As it turned out it was already 9.30 am and i had to get ready to go to library with Naddie. Around 10.30 am , i got ready and dressed . Around 11.10 am , mama sent me to library to study with Naddie .

You guys might be quite weird , who does studying in their holidays ? HAHA :D yeah i know . But i need to polish my chemistry has i failed the paper quite bad. So i need a lot of studying on Chemistry so with the help of Naddie , i have a tutor on my Chemistry before i start going to tuition. So around 1.30 pm , the library was quite full because form 5 student had finish their modern mathematics paper . And they were there studying agama paper and some of them had their additional mathematic books . We studied , studied and studied . Then this was this bunch of guys behind us. But one thing that keep on bothering me and Naddie and also others in the library was that - They did not how to shut up or keep quiet . They did not know that it was library that they have been heading to and not a kedai mamak . God ! . I was so psst off . I can't even concatrate on my chemistry and i had a slight headache . *bummer!

Oh ! A funny thing happen actually in the library . As the library kept quiet , and the bunch of boys started to make less noise . There was this chinese boy phone rang so loud . People in the library looked at him . O.o ! People stared and even glare . He was so embrassed . hihi . Then the ringtone was " paparazzi " by Lady Gaga . Then Moon ( a form 5 student from my school ) and this guy started to sing as the tune was out . As example -

Lady gaga's voice : baby , you're famous superstar . You know that i'll be ....
Moon and this guy : You're paparazzi .

everybody laughed and smiled . HAHA . Something funny while happen in the library. Went home around 3.30 pm . I'm so tired :(
Goodnight Blogger .

1001 i like about robots that have blue core in them .

i didn't update my blog yesterday - the reason why because i felt so tired that i nearly puke . Ok it was bad . In the morning i went out with my girlfriends until afternoon . Then in the evening i had a wedding ceremony that i had to go , replacing papa's place. I wore a white dress with heels and a black cardigan. I was so bored there - so i used mama's phone to online facebook and update my status (: As you know i went out with girlfriends - we watched a movie . We were so badly wanted to watch 2012 -but oh! boy , 2012 was SOLD or either FULL ! I was so bummed ! bummed ! BUMMED ! BUMMED ! I wanted to cry . Zati and Kimmy was like " it's okay . How about we watch another movie ? " . They were calm . So we watched " Astro Boy " the movie - Oh! I know it's kinda childish. You tell me . By the way , we're the only only teenagers in the theatre room while others were parents with their kids. HAHA ! :D Kimmy's hair was pulled by a 3 year old kid while she was watching it . HAHA :D The movie was not dissapointing . And also while we were watching the movie - the was the scence that the RRF's got out a feather as they wanted to tickle Mr.Hamegg and the other robots , it was burnt by another robot - i heard a little boy giggle . He was so cute :) HAHA :D :D

Anyway , i'm in love with Toby a.k.a Astro Boy ;;) Me , Ija , Zati and Naddie are so like " Astro Boy is so cute ! " .

Today today , Sunday . Morning i went to a family day . It was fun :) And tired . Because i didn't had enough sleep yesterday night . I got back from the event , i took a nap . When i woke up it was already 5 pm . And got dressed fast , because mama and papa wanted to go out . And now i feel dizzy . Dizzy like a fly . I think i'm going to take a nap .

XOXO .

i want your revenge and love

Lady Gaga's song - Bad Romance is so addictive . I can't stop myself from dancing to it . I've download and it's my favorite song for now . I love you LADY GAGA ! <33

Anyway , school holiday has just started for me ! Yeay , school of 2009 is over . oh ! We have to clean up our class before the school was over . Then we had another 15 minutes before the last bell rang , all of sudden - all the memories that i had in the class was coming back to me . The first day i came into the class , the day we got a subsitute teacher for our add maths class , Ms . Yeoh soon to be Mrs . Then we had a llittle class party as she was leaving . Then we had a exchange student in our class . She was from German and her name was Hannah . Next year , on the 4th January she's going back to German . I will miss her , everybody will miss her as she stayed in our class and talked with us . And she understand what we said with each other as our Bahasa Melayu teacher teached her. Then Pn Poh , our class teacher made a move to another school for she got promotioned . We all cried as it was the leave of our teacher . Pn Poh , she treated us like her own daughters , now a class teacher who could be our mother ? WOW ! I can't ask for more . Everybody had their tears down that day . I can't forget it. hm , then school year end , we had one more week before it was over - class party was held :D Everybody had a blast. Next year , we're form 5 . SPM year . Everybody will be busy . EVERYBODY will have books as their second boyfriend . Oh GOD ! I'm so shock that the world is spinning so fast . I need a break and i don't know , somekind of miracle to happen .

Goodbye memoir of 2009 in 4 lily . Hello memoir of 2010 in 5 liliy .

OH before i forgot , tomorrow i'm going out to catch a movie with my girlfriends ! Finally , after months of not going to the movies - now i have a time to do so . Thanks mama and papa (: ILOVEYOU

Lipstix and toxic

I want your love and

I want your revenge

You and me could write a bad romance

love , stop the aching

It's right what people use to say that love is aching and breaking. Love also gives you the moment of head over heels. I have experience every single feeling in love. Sometimes i could take it , and sometimes i can't. There's when the moment , i'll cry and ask for my girlfriends help.

It's right when people say that something in life you can't predict. I can't predict that dull moments comes and appear to be a part in my life. I couldn't predict that one day i have to move in life - make a new chapter. I couldn't predict that one day the person i love the most will leave me - when the time is right. I couldn't predict my future unless i know what's best for me.

It's right when people say that one day you will miss your love ones. I miss my boyfriend so badly. I miss my friends back in my hometown. I miss my old school. I miss my old memories that make me happy and sad. I miss everything in life.

It's right when people say that time move faster nowadays. It's true - if you realize. I'm going to appreciate more in life.

i can't believe the bloody arse

mama wouldn't let me buy another pair of heels :( The last heels i bought , i seldom wear it. And it's like she wants me to wear it like forever. I even had told her, on functions i wear the heels but no - she still insists upon me to wear it. My cousin wedding is so near. It's like another 3 weeks. I need another pair of heels - like wedges ? or super heels ? or gladiator heels ? or any perfect heels that fits me and i like it ? I gotta find money .

School was boring. Teacher rarely come in class only the Add Maths teacher. SPM is so near - another one day to go. I'm so freaked out - how funny i'm not taking the paper but i feel the chills :| Dann is taking his SPM paper this year, i wish you all the best baby :) Teachers are so busy with the SPM candidate. School year end break is near . I'm still counting the school days to end. That is so cruel for a student to do that - like NOT!

Well that was about today. OH OH ! Today i became high and hyper and couldn't stop laughing. I'm going to blame on a book that i read so here goes - " i hate you book ! i hate you ! " . pheww , now i feel better. And OH ! OH ! Mama knows everything about the relationship that i have with Dann. And my secret soon can be revealed - if mama couldn't keep her mouth shut. I'm so scared :| somehow , someway . But i kinda feel of a relieve that now she knows.

p:s // before i go away , i wanna say thank you for visiting my blogger :) xoxo ,

i thinking of getting myself a flash for my DSLR

right , i think i'm going to ask papa to buy me the Canon flash for my DSLR . And i'm thinking to take art classes during my holidays as my friends are going to get a job for themselves - Good Luck people :) Art classes , piano classes and also studying at the library with my friend , Naddie . She's going to help me with my chemistry subject :)

Yesterday night , i talked with Dann on the phone . And before we put down the phone - he told me that i should decrease my time on the laptop and decrease my time online . He's worried about it , that took half of my day to online . And he thinks i should reduce it . And take more time on my studies and not by online . I love you Dann and thanks ;;)

Today , i had lunch at Secret Recipe with mama friend . She treated me for my belated birthday . I so full . I had grilled chicken chop with frosty watermelon juice and for dessert i had American brownies . Oh God ! It was marvelous :) Thanks auntie .

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today is not much thing do , i sat at home without nobody company. Mum and Dad are off to their functions while i'm stuck at home with my phone beeping every few minutes as i'm texting with ze boyfriend , Dann and finishing the Japan drama , Nodame Cantabile . I planning to watch movies , but i have nobody to company me , crap lah like this . I can't stay the hold day at home actually because i might get sleepy and sleep . and do more sleeping the next . boring and bored am i .

Next time think before making a decision to leave me or others

i just couldn't believe somehow , it's all coming back to me . Those wicked days - me and you and also another person who went and just popped in our relationship - try to take you away from me , oh thank god (!) you'd still love me , and never ever say goodbye . You never had declare it . That's why i love you . Even sometimes in your mind you pop the question by saying , i can't do this and whatsoever , but it had failed you to leave me , not even a second . You had never had the guts to say " babe , i hate you " - it was a reason of you'd always " i love you and i never ever going to hate you babe " . That's right , you'd love me . You love me (: Most precious thing in my life , which is you . Effing i love you baby .

hi . i miss my boyfriend so much that i can eat a bar of chocolate all by myself .

Papa has a thing in mind for our holiday vacation . He's already asking when is my semester break . Can't wait for the holidays to arrive (: My first photo shoot . And also can't wait to go out with my friends this holidays . Even i have to study during the holidays - but what gives anyway . xoxo ,

when two white birds were in love , then one of the white birds had to fly away

yeap , that's right . Life - love - lust . 3 words are better than 1 word - sadness . I dedicate this note to a friend of mine , Durra . As yesterday , she came up to me at IM and told me that she had just broke up . I'm so sorry to hear your news about the broke up with you and your boyfriend ( your ex ) . I'm really sorry , just have faith in you , don't blame yourself okay ? Everything in life has a something to do with miracles and magical things could happen . Don't give up , your friends and also I will always be here to cheer up :) That's right - " what are friends for , aite ? " .

Today was Saturday . Saturday . I went to school , HAHA . I went to school for a reason , kelab pelancongan had a makan makan today . Teacher gave us , chicken rice hainam and teacher also had bought a cake - chocolate indulgence from Secret Recipe . It was delicious of course , has it was from SECRET RECIPE . shish . HEE :)

I went home around 12.45 pm . I sat at home , feeling gulity and sad of yesterday night i had a fight with byfie . I should have said that way , i asked for forgiveness , but in the end i got scolded . Today afternoon wasn't the day that i had asked for , he makes decision without making it proven . In the end - i'm a mess and he's a big mess to . He asked for the brake up - a later after 30 minutes i get a text message . " Sayang , i can't do this , i still love you and i can't life without you :( " - Dann . Thank God , now were okay , and everything is fine . Baby our song ! " Ku mahu mu tahu , by Hujan " ;;) I love you Dann ,

It's quite true what my prediction said

my results sucks . my science papers are quite bad . only i know how bad is it . if it was on a league - i can say my bio paper are first in lead , 2nd place go to my physic paper , the last place goes to my chemistry paper . only i know how bad i did with my chemistry paper . shit .

i'm out and about , till SPM strike for them SPM-ers .

ain't you thought i was catwoman

yeah that's right - i'm writing but still i'm feeling worried and frustrated . Some reason which i can't find way maybe it's because Dann is having a flu and sick that's what i'm worried about . Frustated maybe is because my chemistry are way bad , so bad that i can kill myself . But if Dann knows about this - i'm going to be so dead . Sorry bby , And now papa is hoping to get a result for my SPM has he knows the place that he can put me in the future - for furthering my studies . I can't do anything with my passion - music , somehow . Oh what a splendid day what it turn to be . Tomorrow is Monday - and i hope the sunshine shine on me brightly , and baby is feeling better .

@34678!

it's just phrase - and you should get something out of it .

This week - exam ended on Wednesday , the last papers were add maths :| pfft . pftt . pfft . This whole week i came to school i made noise until the teacher had to give a warning about it . What ever , i just don't feel the mood nor the spirit . Later chicks and dudes

i think you heard me for the 1000567 times now

*baby , guess where i've been ? Where ? Guess guess guess ! ohh you went to Hollywood ? HAHA , no - to far . Guess again ? Errr , you went to see a football match ? Well , no . Perak had lost to the football game last 2 weeks , wait for next year . Oh well , dear i just don't know . Where have you been my love ? Ohhh - i went to The Zoo ! hehehehhe (:

Yeap , i went to the zoo today with mama and papa . Just loosing up some stress here - so yeah , we went to zoo . I was like a 5 year old kid when i heard that mama didn't want to go to the zoo , i was sulking . HAHA . LOL . Papa was like , " why - you don't to go now ? You said you wanna go just now ? " and i was like " naaahh , no need . no need . " And i put on a long face . Imagine that . 16 to 5 . HAHA .

I've been to busy studying this week . I have 4 more papers left and 3 more days before my finals ends . Then it's freedom , people :) Can't wait can't wait can't figiting wait ! haha ,
so i'll be dissapearing again this week - can't wait to see you guys again . xoxo

O87982.

the thing that i like you the most is your smile sayang . You make me melt and restless when i see you smile .
And that's why i love you ,

- byfie who i love the most , 23 October , 0103 am

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