Friday, December 31, 2010

So long farwell i guess ?

It's 11.41 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm feeling SEXAYHh' as 2010 is about to come an end in about 15 mintues . 
Just got back from Kuala Lumpur. Hanged out with Sara , Eliyya and Alia. It's fun to have the good old times back :D !

My resolution for 2011 is NOT EVEN EVER TO SWEAR IN ANY TYPE OF SITUATION !

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HOPE THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE FOR 2011.
AND MAKE IT YOUR YEAR BABYEH ! :D jYEAAHHHHHHH ..

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Building dreams

It's 10.42 pm , Malaysia time and I'm so happy today. Malayia won the AFF Suzuki Cup yesterday night. 4-2 , Malaysia against Indonesia.

Today is 30th December , and i think it's about time i make my wishlist for 2011 . The hopes and dreams of mine in 2011.

1. Receiving good grades in SPM in March.
2. Hope to get a place in IPTA and get to do Diploma in Architecture.
3. Taking good care of my boyfriend , Najib.
4. Find a new hobby in my life.
5. Pray for the best for others.
6. Do better in my studies in college.
7. Drive the car like you own the streets but with manner .
8. Have more friends and make more friends.
9. WILL NOT SWEAR ! 
10.  I WILL NEVER EVER SWEAR .


And i think that is about enough - for my change in 2011.




Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The Last Note For You

It's 10.17 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm heart broken. It's crushed into pieces and i think that this is THE ultimate END. 

Receiving a text message around 12 in the morning , just to say whats in your heart and brain - doesn't think at all on how i will feel about it. Yes , i'll take whatever you said to me - tied with a big thank you. Thanks for everything especially the part - You regretted the most for loving me. Thanks :') I owe you big time. I might be childish , posting so that the whole wide world knows how bad it is. But HEY ! it's my place. It's my blog. And it's my thoughts. It's my feelings. Seriously , thank you . My heart is shattered on what you did. And i think it doesn't work even at once i cry with blood in my tears - cause everything you said will be  kept in me. You see - how bitter on what you did to me? You see my part in the relationship - and everything is my fault. MY FAULT. MY FAULT. 24/7 MY FAULT. MINE. MINE.MINE.MINE. *Thanks

You know who you are.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

This what all it matters to me

It's 4.19 pm , Malaysia time. Today's date 26th December 2010. We have only 5 days before new year is here. A new year , a new life that's what people say. 2011 , the start of a new refresh life with a better memory and take whatever opportunity that we have. The ups and downs that we had during 2010 , we will look back as a recap in life and take it as a moral value in life and do better. That's what people say . All of these things is said and done by every each human in life. 2010 is all a turning point of everything that we did and had. All of the sadness and happiness is put in a label called THE BITTERSWEET MEMOIR.

I want to recap everything that happen in my life 2010. And i hope that it won't bore you - i mean the readers of course. 
What happen during 2010 is that i learned  to live my life to fullest. But not till the fullest , 'cause 2010 i had my SPM exam. Which is Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia , where it is taken for 17 year old kiddo's to make big a step in life which is phasing the adult world - college or work.  I had my ups and downs in relationship with friends and whatsoever that happens to be close to me. I had a new kitten. I had ups and downs with my boyfriend , which is now my ex. Yes , we broke up. I know it's sad and heartbroken , but i'm very sure that we'd survive. Hey ! We still 2011 , guys. I had a quarrels with my parents. I had stress-fullness maximum volume in my life. But hey ! What to do ? We live in a world were stress is in very dictionary of every person , we just can't help it. I learned the way to treat people , to see way life in a different perspective. Sometimes talking to my mum as if i'm talking to a stranger. That's what happen , as I grew older - i don't see the way of life that were i was brought up to. Since i was small , i was exposed to different things - kids were playing video games , i was reading books. Kids were laughing , i sat alone in the corner playing my teddy bear. I am an only child. So i'm use to it.

2010. Senior year. MY SENIOR YEAR. Which at all i've never felt like a senior at all. I looked at my juniors and thought that , this  is my final year. Just have fun and study till the maximum and make my parents happy with my results. I was in and out in studies for a while now - no kidding. But hey ! We're humans and we do have failure's in life. Without failing , we won't learn anything in life - a saying in humans.  On 9th December 2010 , just right after my final paper of SPM - i'm very sure that i'm gonna miss my Convent life for 2 years and miss my high school friends and won't experience the same without them. My class was like a family in form 5. We shared laughter , naughtiness and sadness together. Pn Poh's leaving in 2009 , our little mischief in 2010 with one of our teachers and our classmate who makes us laugh in every moment. And we did share out stress together. 3 weeks before SPM , everybody was busy with themselves. Nobody dared to bother each other cause who might know - a tiger might RAWRRRR to you. Oh well , goodbye senior year in High School. 

2011 , hope your nice to me. 
Farewell 2010.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Well , excuse me !

" they love you and care for you. They want the best from you just like i do , and yes i love you " - byfie.

It's 11.05 pm , Malaysia time ; of course. And it's funnayh. I had problems at home today. It's irritating and annoys me. It's Christmas eve here. Tomorrow is Christmas. Too bad that Malaysia does not have kick-boxing day which is on the 26th December - if there was  it's like WE SHOP UNTIL WE DROP AND DADDY GOES TSK TSK .  Oh well , and yes everybody has a history in the their life.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Daring you makes me wanna kill you

It's 7.33 pm , Malaysia time.  AND MY LIFE IS SO F UP ! MY FREEDOM IS TOTALLY LIKE A BRICK WALL RIGHT BETWEEN ME - AGAIN! 

Memaki hamun is the way you when you get mad to me. Letting your anger on me. Shouting and screaming to me is the way you teach me the ways of life.


I have a heart , M.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Mend my broken hear after all

It's 4.37 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to The Script. And today i got to know and i want you to know - be strong 'cause i'll always be there for you. People change when time ticks every second - in one in a million. I miss you.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

This is weird

It's 5.47 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to the Love and Rockets - no new tales to tell.
I just got news that my dad is delaying his thought of buying me an iPod classic , AGAIN ! First i had to wait for a month to have just because i had my SPM on . And now he is delaying it again 'cause my mum wants a netbook (!) Man , what the hell. I have to wait - AGAIN ! GAH ! :O 

*i'm ok , and i'll survive. I'll move on in life , no worries folks.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

I will never forget you

After 2 days of coping with my sadness today i'm gonna blog. Me and boyfriend - we broke up. Why ? There's some reason , but i'm not ready to share with it you guys. This break up part is very hard and harsh. I can't stop thinking about him. I love you too much dearly.
 

Monday, December 13, 2010

No guts and have no game

It's 11.19 pn , Malaysia time. And some people know what person i am and which group i belong to - weird.
Gonna start get my driving license this week. On Thursday going to hear a 6 hours talk about the law of driving with Lidya and her sister, Nadya.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Somewhere here next to you





Watched a movie today with my friends. It was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow Part One. The story line was so freaking interesting. But i felt frustrated 'cause end of the movie , as it was part one. Which i have to watch for part two , which is like i have to wait for another year. This is frustrating. 

Then came lunch. And i didn't not meant to brag , but humans please with with ethics. I'm sorry , but it this what we are ? People who make mess , so that others don't feel comfortable to sit and eat (?) I hate going to food courts -.-

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Could not ever be late

It's 9.58 pm and SPM is totally over for me. I'm posting like 2 days late due to some circumstances. End of high school and hello to the big world.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Look away has the days past.

It's 3.45 pm , Malaysia time.  And right now i feel so f up. I just got a comment from an anonymous  on  last post and telling me that the experiment for paper 3 was all time presence of catalyst and not heat of combustion ! Argh , what was on my mind by then ? I'm getting mixed up with some easy stuff and making it more complicated. WTH. Or whatever , i think i'm gonna like have little marks for my paper 3 , but please please give a credit in it ! Or make the graph come down so that it's easy to get a good grade -.-"

I'm watching Twilight for the 5th time now , and i never get bored of it. Where in this place i'm supposed to be studying biology. 'Cause tomorrow paper is biology -.-" I went to sleep like twice already 'cause after all these times , i came to my senses that biology is actually boring -.-" heh. Soory biology-lover. I have 12 more hours -  i think - before the paper.  THIS IS HARD.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Go Meowww-Garrr

It's technically 10.14 pm , Malaysia time.  And i'm a geek tonight. I have my specs on tonight as my eye sight is getting a bit sore. Going to get contact right after my papers. And gonna color my hair brunette. It's these goals i need to get right after the papers of SPM. The paper - A PAPER - that would cost a lot later. 

I had chemistry paper today. Has yesterday post wanted you guys to wish me luck in it. OMG! . My chemistry paper 3 , is so freaking hard.  I nearly cried and i think i get only a passing grade for my chemistry. But please please , let the passing mark be credit or super credit. I need to at least get credit on  my chemistry and physics in order to be qualified in a course that i wish to pursue after March 2011. 

One thing i learned  today is that read all chapters ! Never ever ever ever , leave a single topic or sub-topic. 'Cause it's incredibly precious (!). I hate HEAT OF COMBUSTION , heh.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Every little piece of you fits in eventually

*right this is so F'ed up . I can't even put a photo in this post. This is sick - Whatever.*

It's like 8.14 pm , Malaysia time. I have like another 17 minutes to go before i offline and continue studying chemistry 'cause tomorrow i have chemistry paper going on -.-" I'm half freaking and half acting dead. I'm so f scared to take the paper tomorrow. My heart is beating so fast , and this does not look good. 

Saturday 
Started my day of being so lazy , wanted to go the library , but nobody had company me. So i had to scribble my thought of going to the library that morning.  But yesterday i mean Saturday was so freaking fun ! I persuade my mother to teach how to drive my car i mean the car right after we were on the way back buying the cat food at a nearby shop. So when we arrived at the house compound , my mother got out of the car and we exchanged seats. I was behind the wheels :) ! Then my mother tried to give me direction. Then out of nowhere , she started to freak out and told me " hit the break ! hit the break ! " . And i was like " whyyy ? chill . " She freaked out then she laughed.  Then i laughed and in the end she got behind the wheels and i was sitting back at the passenger seat. 

But something for sure about driving cars , cars are tremendously heavy ! -.-" Getting behind the wheels of a car is actually hard and you have to pay attention when you a drive car. My lesson is learnt here before actually getting behind the wheels !  Can't for like one more week , this week is end of my SPM papers :D Then the week later I might learn to drive a car with a proper instructor who doesn't go and urge you by saying " hit the break ! hit the break ! " then laugh (?) .

till now and then. Wish me luck. 
*And oh yeah , on Saturday i got to know that after all this time my mother wanted to be a police inspector but she wasn't qualified :( awwhh , too bad mummy ! But want to know something ? 
Even though my mother did not become a police inspector , she is the greatest mum in the whole wide world :) XoXo.


Friday, December 3, 2010

Living in a world of people

Hi.
I still have 3 more papers waiting for me. Chemistry , Biology and Literature in English. Then right after that - i can smell freedom :) Freedom i tell you ;) hee. If your wondering  how was my papers for this week : my answer to you is my papers were not nice at all . They were mean i tell you and i nearly to cried ! * drama queen *


Today i went to the library , and as far as you guys know : for the form 5 student the library is the new hang out place ;)   I studied Chemistry the whole time i was at the library -.-" I covered 3 chapters today ;) YEAY ! Tonight i'm gonna revise the others chapters which is like lot of chapter to go. Whatever.


You want to know something interesting ?
My girlfriend told me that i am " a person that who has originality and doesn't follow people " . 
Getting to know about myself from her is quite interesting. I mean i never thought i could bring  a big influence to them. As i see myself a girl who just like playing mean and thinks that this world belongs to her. I  just knew myself like one year time which i mean - this year. I knew myself. I know what i like. And yesterday i just got a wake up call that " Hey ! i'm a little brat after all ". 


And from  my point of view. We live in a world of people. Were  you wake up not everything seems bright. When you wake up every morning , not every person can get the chance to feel what i feel. Which went i go the kitchen - breakfast is waiting. Not for some people tho, every morning they wake up and feel that this world is not fair. You see ? Humans. Every person of mankind is different. We have ways we think , different in skin colour , different perspective on life , thoughts. And not everyone is the same.


And for me - my perspective is way different from my dad. I think a lot. Just like my dad. As people say " like son like father" . But in my way i say " like daughter like father". And my saying is : everyone gets a chance to feel life. It's either you have the sweet life or the bitter life. Your choice. And to see ways there's always two roads in life. One road will bring you to happiness and the other road my lead to bittersweet. Were bittersweet is the ups and downs in life. And chances were some people take it for granted. 





Sunday, November 28, 2010

We heart this with you


It's a Sunday afternoon. Just another Sunday afternoon , where this Sunday i'll be studying for my next 4 papers where i have like 7 more papers to go. This week is Agama , Mathematics , Additional Mathematics and Physics. Physics oh Physics. I'm so freaking out - which i rarely studied , because i'm easily of getting bored. Ergghh - why this lazy pants attitude is like so so with me during these past weeks.


Anyway , my boyfriend just had a surgery. His little brother texted me , awwhh - his little brother is so cute ;) *winks* . Thanks Rizki for telling me about your brother's condition to me. And i think that his whole family knows about me. We've been like 3 years , so yeah i do think so that they know about me dating their son/brother. Oh well , it's a normal thing when you're in a relationship. 


I'm back with studying , last post for this week. Hope to write again. See you soon ! *hearts*

Saturday, November 27, 2010

I'm falling in and out

if it's okay if i tell the whole world about us  ? That i missed you , missed you lots. Miss your voice , your laugh and your sweet talk - i miss that. Should i also tell them about how i miss you singing to me every night before going to bed ? Should i tell them ? If i tell you it seems a world's end but not that end i mean. I just miss you. And i miss when " you see right thro' me how do you that shitz? " - Nicki Minaj.


this post might be ridiculous , but in a way it reflects who i am and how i think. You might see me as a girl who thinks that the world is made of cotton candies and sweets. But i'm a just a normal girl who sees the world in poverty and people don't a have a heart in stuffs. May i say that this world is unfair. Might be the world of mine where i live in. Not everything seems bright. And not every lights you see is a light of freedom and justice. 

Friday, November 26, 2010

Question that are not yet answers

I did not study at all today. I ended up playing the piano for 2 hours. Tried composing a song that ended up raining , i think that the melody was to sad :( . Oh well. Anyway , it's been a week now. SPM. And no worries peps , i'm still surviving. Wish me luck for another 2 weeks of  papers , papers and less paper -.-

Saturday, November 6, 2010

I'm mad at you but it's a secret.


People promise to be kind and generous. But right now it's just the same as you stick to be you and don't even bother whether it's like i should change matter of people and time.  
 

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Good Gracious me.






SPM is like - mhm - 3 weeks till now. And i'm still on the rocks with my science stream subject. I don't want to let my parents down - Oh please , help ! :( What happen to my love life you guys might wonder. Well nothing happen actually - I'm still with him. It's been like nearly 3 years already - and i'm happy with him , thank you :) My cats - they are doing wonderful.

As days past by, i'm so effin' lazy to go to school. SPM is near and i hope dad understand that i don't want to go to school and study. Cause i actually can't at all study !  I want to go to the library , and spend my whole day at the library - where for sure it's quiet and i can study. My dad makes me to go to school. He MAKES me to go to school , which that is the most part i hate about it. And right now , i don't actually fit in this new place where i call not home. I don't know why , but yeah. I don't fit here at all. I think ways differently while others thinks every other person is normal which they are not. 


I miss my home. I miss my homies. I miss going out and having good laughs with my best friends. I miss waking up late. I miss everything about Shah Alam.  and I miss you.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

This is the way things are

One thing that I noticed today - people are different. We come in different shape and sizes. We have different views on politics. We have different views on the economics. We have different views on social life. But one thing that each human body views the same is love - it's either bitter or sweet.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

It's a longlonglongtremondousmightbelonglong update !



It's about time that update my blog. Where have i been ? Where have i been ? Oh i went to see the queen ! BAHAHA. Naahh. I was busy with school and I had my SPM Trial . It's been like one month since i updated my blogger- i guess and think so. Anyway what had happen to me these few weeks was :-

I celebrated my birthday with my cousins and aunts this year. Which wasn't actually celebrated - my birthday this year fell on the first day of  Raya - and you know when Raya comes people are busy. So yeah - I forgive them.
During Raya i ate like nobody business and i think i gain like 5 kg ! o.O" - i'm going to be fat by the time graduation comes.
Oh talking about graduation - i'm having one in couple of weeks to come. I already got my dress and right now i just need accessories need to be fit the dress - and also a pair of shoes (?) If that Mummy gives a green light and the shoes are on sale !  .   
About my love life. well it was interesting. We had a little fight and the end we made up. That is us - cat fight and reunite after couple of hours. This is what you call : I love you no matter what. 
About my studies especially my trials for SPM i did O.K - has in OK i scored an average mark and to keep on the track some marks were gaining and some others are loosing. That's why this is the time where i have to study smart. Be wise in answering the questions. Well exams - please be nice. 
What had happen more ? mmhhmm .. not much actually. I did alot of photography job after having my Trials. Taking the class photo and the Editorial Board Members. oh yeah not forgetting that i got my self a speedlight and superwide angle (lens camera) for my birthday :D Thank you daddy :))

Well i think it is about it. Talk to see you soon. Ciao :) !  

Saturday, September 11, 2010

2 in 1 celebration this year

As you all know raya  was on the 10th September 2010. So what a surprise actually - raya had the same date as my birthday ! My seventeen birthday !  My birthday was not celebrated this year but during raya maybe on another day - which is not the day i celebrate my bday -.-" buu-huu. Anyway this year raya is like shit . sorry

Thursday, September 9, 2010

We will be a dream

My cell phone can't stop beeping with greetings of " raya" . 

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I've got to tell you something

To tell you the truth ,  dear mate . I'm actually quite envy of my friends that can go out and break their fast together. I can't do that as i have some conditions to handle and i'm pretty pretty sure that my dad won't let me go out has the condition is I must take care of someone that i love the most. The cellphone line is killing me - bloofy hell ate. Me and the boyfriend could not stop arguing on little things that was suppose to get over it. And actually after the little fight is a  good to know that everything is okay and you know that in the end he is not actually in the term of " hot and cold". It's really funny sometimes to have a good laugh with your mate even your day ended pretty badly.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Blame the part where i put you in pieces

This post might be long. So anyway here i goes ;)

I have a mother who has an occupation of a doctor , a teacher , a driver  , a lawyer , the fashion police , and a chef. So you see kids , my mother works has a doctor-teacher-driver-lawyer-fashion police - chef. And also my personal assistant , has I am also her personal assistant. Without her, i couldn't even wake up in the morning with a smile even my boyfriend calls me up to say a warm romantic Good Morning. I now Mother's Day has past like a 5 months ago , but this is from my heart to her. And i now that she is strong ;')


So well i've been busy with my exams and everything. And right now, i'm having my 2 weeks break off - Raya is coming up which practically falls on my birthday and also my anniversary with the byfie !


Has i wanted to update my blogger , finding the right picture to suite this post and title -  I scrolled down and saw this picture that was taken by my byfie like one year ago. He is so freaking adorable and cute !  ILYSM ;') Plus it brings back the memories that he is really romantic , lovable and caring.

 

Friday, August 27, 2010

People have nicknames to hid their identity and forget the past

i was too busy with my reality life that i forgot that i had my social life on the internet too . sorry troops :( ! 
I had and still having papers for my Trial SPM papers. This Thursday - which i mean next Thursday officially so officially call " freedom-in-only-two-months freedom. 2 months of being free but yet i have to face my revision books and my text books and my tutor books ? no i mean my teachers for help :) hihi. 

So today was a lot more than the two past weeks. We went shopping ! :D hihi , I've been waiting for like 2 months to shop ! And yes , today i did that with my parents :) hihi , 

i still have my papers for Biology and Physics. Haisshhh -.-" Typical world with exams ! !@#$%^tfdmjdhdkgp@#$%^ ! 

See you till then . 

and before i forgot - Happy Ramadhan people :) XOXO

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

ATTENTION:

As a 17-year old girl like me. There is one dilemma that will always haunt me and you also ( if your a 17 too ) which is SPM. Not love , not having  a boyfriend , not getting a life and not having a car (for now) but it's SPM. Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. Every 17 year old kid in Malaysia must and MUST prepare for the battle called SPM. SPM is a must start during October and ends around November in this 2010 year. 
But before sitting the big test which is SPM we have to sit for our trials which is near and near it's like 2 weeks time ! Mother has been blabbing not blabbing actually but a reminder which : GET YOUR BOOK READY AND I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU GET GOOD GRADES !
How challenging is this ?
It's like preparing for World War III - Sijil Pelajaran Makan - i mean SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA -.-" 
GOODBYE. 
AND WITH LOTS OF LOVE.
WISH ME LUCK
AND GOODBYE
*BANG*

Sunday, July 25, 2010

You better hold on tight , spider monkey

My 

My body is aching and i'm restless.

I have a life so that's why I did not update my blogger for quite a long time. 
My 2 weeks schedule last week, was totally freaking packed . For the whole last week i was staying back on practicing and rehearsing on the big day which was yesterday ( Saturday - 24/6). 
My society held an  event which was a talent competition  and the theme was Halloween. People had fun and surprisingly i was the Emcee of the day with Lean.People responded to my question and yes they were very supporting audiences which made the place more happening. Thank you.

3 more weeks before my trials and i think i'm going to cry. 

p:s// i'm going to miss my senior year in an all girls school - surprise (!)

Saturday, July 17, 2010

ATTENTION :


I'm not selected to go to National Service.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

i don't have the brains but i can kill you while i play the piano

I learn faster when i'm playing pop songs and playing one of my favorite piece on the white and black keys.  It's already july and i have one more month to go before SPM trial. KILL ME ! -.-"  I'm not even ready lah . I got to skip my fun for 3 weeks or 4 weeks or the whole month. STRESS STRESS STRESS IS MAKING ME GLOOMINESS.  welll , happy July humans :)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

It's not like we're friends or anything

Yesterday night was so freaking fun. 
Me and byfie , Dann were on the phone for 3 hours straight. From 12 until 3 am. And you can say i was an OWL yesterday night :) I was so happy and HYPER ! :B We talked about everything about our dates that we had. Every date has a story - from the first kiss till getting caught and having a little fight - and ended up kiss and make out.  You can say that we were one sweet couple were shared a lot of things among the years.  XOXO's

Tomorrow  school is reopening. I've gotta face my exam results and books. I'm going to be away every weekdays and i'll be back every weekends. Going to have limits in my life - tuition no more skipping. Taking a nap every afternoon for 45 minutes. Finishing all of my homeworks and revising like a robot :| *beep beep*  My cellphone will be on only on weekends - call me then. I HATE IT WHEN I"M FACING THE BIGGEST EXAM IN MY LIFE - I HOPE I DON'T HAVE TO FACE IT. 

GOODBYE 
XOXO 

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Keep the words to youself hunnay

Schools about to start. O mi gawd. You see how nowadays times flies quickly ( ! ) Oh my my times flies .

 So how did ended my school holidays is like this : 
______________________________________________________________________________________________________________
 ______________________________________________________________________________________________________________
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________
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(not less than 200 words)                                                                                                                                             
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                150 marks


So technically you see  " how i ended my school holiday " is an short essay which is blank and hey ! the essay is giving me a 150 marks (!) . Now that what you call REAL marks.  

So how did i ended my school holidays is : 

i didn't went shopping.
i didn't hang out with my friends and catch a movie.
i studied a bit. ONLY A BIT - which made my mother unsatisfied.
i didn't go to tuition ONLY for additional mathematics.
i talked on the phone with Dann every night and every of the night he will sing to me before going to bed.
Got a new kitten and its name is Princess Malaya. You see how unique is that ? HAHA.
And during the holidays - one thing that was solved which is i think i hate it here -.-" Sorry peps and sorry friends - but i think i don't ever belong here even i put on a happy face and forget that Shah Alam where i should be.


XOXO.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I think i don't like the part that i lived here

It's been like 8 days , me without my friends hanging out and buzzing around the mall catching a movie. Right ? 

You see , there's somethings in my life right now , is changing. THE ATMOSPHERE> I think i hate here. I don't know why. It seems that i can't find the perfect friend here - i MISS my friends back in Shah Alam deadly , i MISS the life in Shah Alam and yes i know that by this school holidays i'll be chilling out with my friends and with my boyfie. 

It looks like i'm only here for 2 years just to finish my high school years in an all girls school. Can't be communicating with any boys because that it is the rule of an all girls school - like that they don't do outside of school . They even make out with a boy ! Gawd.  Sorry for being a little bitchy here , but it's true. You can't blame the changing of Era's and changing of people.

Even this school holidays , a 2 weeks holiday i can't even go to Shah Alam and hang out with my boyfriend and friends. You see how much i miss them ? It's been a year now , and yes i can't get rid of the memories i have in Shah Alam . I've been there for 15 years  - it's like half of my half. And dad just got to move here. It this life what you call ? 

I could cry of boredom , nag like a mother , scream like a baby ,  shout like a crazy person   - yet things won't change for me. You see how bored my life is here ? :|

Thursday, June 10, 2010

He's singing on top of his lungs ♥




 Yesterday afternoon we had a fight. He acted all so weird , and when he acts like that - i blurted out " Do you have someone else ? ".  Then all of a sudden he said " You know what ? I hate it when you say that . Bye ! ". He put down the phone. For 15 minutes , i cried.  For that 15 minutes and myself and i and  only me it made my world stopped. Because he was pissed and i was being so dramatic all of a sudden. Then later i call him back , and i told him " You shouldn't have raise your voice at me . I was only asking" - with  my tearful cries while saying this. And he said " sorry. " And i was sorry too , for being so dramatic on something that i wasn't supposed too. He tried to persuade me that i shouldn't cry because he wasn't supposed to do that - technically he is sorry. So am I. 


Then i asked him " sing to me the song that i wish  you had sang to me ? " . Then he said " Ok". He sang - " selamat malam sayang" by Faizal Tahir. After he sang , i made a condition. The condition was - he is supposed to sing to me every night before going to sleep. And it was a deal ! :D ngee ♥ 

Later that night , i called him around 10 pm , and asked him where he was. He was hanging with his friends - as normal. Then ... around 10.30 pm called him back asked him whether he remembered tonight ( 9.06.2010 ) at 12 am - what's the event. And he was like " mhm , yeah i remember. What is it ? ". He was asking me back what was it. I asked him to guess - and he was "  yeah , i remember. Sing to you tonight before going to bed. oh wait ! calling tonight - yeah i remember". I was like " noooo , not that. other than that". And he , " yes of course i remember our anniversary" .  I giggled on the line , as i said i love you i put down the phone.

Around 11.00 pm , i called him and told him that i'm going to bed and he should call me later at 12 am.

Around 12.27 am , he called me. " Happy anniversary sayang / baby.
It's our 2 years 7 months anniversary. That's been long sayang. I love you with all my heart and thank you for everything. "  Then we talked and talked for one hour 30 minutes. And sang to me again ! :D hihihi .  And this time was special , he asked me to close my eyes while he's singing. Much more better baby. Then later .. as the night were pretty much sweet with sugars and love hearts all around me and him - we ended the night by saying our goodnight love you and kisses and my warning to him " don't you call someone else " . He laughed - we ended the phone call. Last night was the sweetest night ever. i love you baby and always do.


 happy anniversary baby - from us being normal friends to being a scandal and later on being a couple. I love you and hope to be forever yours :)  2 years 7 months , still standing strong .    ♥


" Kan ku menjadi arjuna dalam mimpi-mimpimu
Kan ku panah tepat ke jiwamu atas nama cintaku
Pari-pari ku utus bawa kau ke sini lagi
Terhapus semua air mata dengan senyuman

Selamat malam sayang , selamat malam kasih. "         

 

Monday, June 7, 2010

25 things suprisingly about me

1. Sometimes i think that boys are a jerk - sorry.

2.  I have six-sense you know why ? because i can feel when something's not right. 

3. I kiss my cat every morning before going to school , and Robin like it the most .

4. I shop for handbags , clothes that are not showing off my skin and shoes either heels which are not to tall nor to short. Hey ! I'm tall enough to wear high heels plus i'm not going to make my knee ache.

5. I like to call my boyfriend . Ask him how many times a day i call him . I call him in the morning , afternoon , evening and night.

6. I reply text message in 7 seconds. Mum is shock when - first she ask me to send a text to dad and the next thing she know i'll be watching the TV.

7. I still watch cartoon and eat gummy bears if i have chance to buy it. 
8. Dad treats me as if i'm little 5 year old. I still remember he said that i was in standard 5 ! Oh My . 

9. I like to read books especially love story that makes me cry when i'm all alone. Even the boyfriend sees me in weird way and says " It's only a book " . A girl-heart what can you predict ?
10. Some of my mum's friend calls me baby . 

11. I'm in love with the Nicholas Sparks because of his book - he's a writer. And this writer of BM novel - HLovate.
12. Yes , i read Bahasa novels. I'm trying my best to upgrade my bahasa melayu. 

13. I can't guess what will happen to me if my parents were not with me right now.
14. My boyfriend and I are like a 3 year old kid , which likes to fight and have this sweet conversation after a mushy-fight.

15. I miss my boyfriend , getting a hug and a kiss from him. 
16. I miss my friends back in Shah Alam especially Sara , Ayu , Mira , Najlaa , Atiq , Anis , Nick , Deena and Qris

17. I hate girls who goes after my boyfriend even they know that he is taken by me ! 
18.  I call myself a dork sometimes because i sit at home and read books.

19. I can online my Facebook for hours and hours and hours non-stop. Call me " i'm-addictive-to-facebook " .

20. I think that Chemistry and English in Literature is toughest subject of the most !!! 

21. I like to watch MTV and sometimes it's hard of mum getting over the remote control.

22.  I'm not that pretty - and i know that.

23. I hate people talking behind my back just because ____________________ .

24. I love fashion - but dad like to go on budget when it comes to shopping which is frustating.

25. I'm think of getting a new digital camera. Dad is going to kill me -.-"

School holidays assignment

I've just brought a book , The Last Song ( Nicholas Sparks ). It's the second book that i've brought. I've just started a few pages and i'm thinking that i might fall in love with the book. Just what happen to the first i book i brought which was Dear John. I cried to it and laugh to it. 

Even school holidays is only 2 weeks , tuition classes are on - which i might go -  i have to study.  But still i'm reading a book ! BTW , dad's doesn't  know anything about the book  i brought  - if he knew , he might go " uh-huh. You got yourself book ? When you're going to study then my dear daughter ? " Oh well , dad's and their minds. You can't blame them -_-

Sunday, June 6, 2010

I'm worth multi million dollars $$


it's not like we've just met yesterday. It's not like i've just known you yesterday. It's not like everything i do it's  the last. It's not like you're seeing me for the last time. It's not like everyday is the last day we'll be meeting each other. There's a time where people come in one and i'm sure your the one.

3 weeks i had exam - it was suffocating and horrible. I wish that time could be rewind , wind ,wind. 
Happy holidays sugars and hunnies ♥ (: