I've been crying alot nowadays should i stop and except that everything is not the way it is

Had movie date with papa , watched AVATAR . And yeah - it was killing movie , because it was too good too be true.
Baby got hi s letter that i sent to him , yeaya :D !
I'm feeling sad right now , and i wish that you can feel what i feel right now .
I wish that right now i had done my SPM papers , and i can find my own path of life .
I can't live this way , sometimes.
If i was been bought to life , just to be blamed - why should i live ?
People make me down , and right now i can't even smile :|