The Emotional Side of Me.

Once you had dream , a dream to be anything that you want. Either a rockstar or a princess - you have a dream. And now the dream of your dream is about to happen. I'm 18 this year , getting my driving license done and soon i'll be driving my car. Going to of college. College. The first word that pops in my mind when a person says  " College " is homesick. That's right. 


On Monday , i was getting ready and all of a sudden my mum took my comb and she brushed my hair. I felt like a 5 year old again. I miss the moments when i was a toddler. Everything seem sweet. No problems were around me. The only thing i knew was waking up in the morning , going out with my mum and the next thing I knew it i will get a teddy bear from her and a kiss from my dad.  


But now , i'm a teenager . I rarely tell my secrets to my parents. As my mum think that when i tell her my secrets , she will act cool in her way but for me it's not cool. Though , i really appreciate her to act cool with it. But i know i have my limits. Cause people said to her , " to be close to your child whose growing up , you should make her your friend. Your best friend " , though it's true . But sometimes , it's just annoying. My dad is cool , when i talk with him , he just keep quiet and listen and the next thing i know it - he will make fun of me. Yeah , that's my parents. I'm the only child , so whatever happens - it's between me and just my parents no one else .


I'm going of to college soon. And i'm having this thoughts of what's going to happen at home and everything. And i'm thinking the first thing that will approach me is " HOMESICKNESS".


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Cranky double it.

It's 8.58 pm , Malaysia time and my clock is running fast - i have approximately about 2 weeks before i leave for college and pursuing my studies in Architecture. That's right folks i'm leaving soon. OMGosh , it felt like yesterday i still had mama to send me to school and salam my dad in the morning before i leave school. There you go - time runs fast these days. And that's what the scientist also says. 

And about my SPM results , it was quite delighting to see. And except the fact that i got A and A- for my English studies - typical normal for me. While a BM i got a B :( How devastated i felt on that day , and ever wondered how i went on that day  ? Well let me say, I didn't cry that day but i nearly did. But my mind was set , that i'm going to feel calm and good about the results - and it was accomplish :)

And about today , i went to KLiUC open day and yes , my parents are confirming about sending me there and i felt a little bit sad 'cause this is my first time i'm going to leave home for real. Oh well. Papa just bought me a MacBook Pro :) and YES I FEEL HAPPY  :') *it's a preparation before entering college - FYI.

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When everything seem to be out of place

It's 9.47 pm , Malaysia time and for a 17 year ++ old girl , i should be worrying about one thing which is my SPM results. Even you see me happy and having fun at times but i hide the worrying behind my face. People say i have slimmed down and my mother responds " She's worried about her results " . And this is true to tell you , to be exact. Today is 20th March , on Wednesday is 23rd March. On that day , it's either i have a happy face or a sad face or just a plain face. And the exact words that i will hear from my parents are - it's either they will get upset or be proud. Which it's bring me stress when i think about it even it takes a sec. 


So i've made up my mind today. I'm gonna take it easy. I'm not going to stress myself cause what have been done is done. You can't take it back unless you have a time machine which that can take me back in November/December of 2010. Just hope that everything is going to be fine. And i pray that what i've done on my paper last year made an effort. It took me ages to understand chemistry. It took me months to understand waves in physics and electroincs. It took me days to understand the meaning of the act of catalyst in an experiment. And it took me FOREVER to understand the concept of add maths. Wish me all the best.


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He knows to make me happy.

 " I will give all my love to you , if that's what you want. I will give you all my love to make you happy and smile as the sun shines in the morning while the moon shines at night. I love you till the last breathe of mine. "

 

And if  i can i will blog about you , ALWAYS. Cause i'm a girl , and that's what i do best. And Yes , i'm in love.

Could everyday be the sweetest day EVER ?

It's 10.53 a.m , Malaysia time and my boyfriend commented on pink fingernails , and he said  " why you colored your nails pink ? " . Yesterday , I went out with my babes - Praseetha and Lidya and the boyfriend , Najib. We watched Big Momma like Father like son. And OMG , the movie was killer hilarious and YES EVERYBODY in the cinema couldn't stop laughing. So like Lidya said , " this was the first time after awhile of watching a movie , it's a comedy now and it was a worthwhile " . Even our seats were so in front - in front the screen -.-" TWO THUMBS UP FOR BIG MOMMA 3 :D OW OW OW OW.

Heads up.

 

It's 9.46 pm , Malaysia time and I'm sorry of what happen and i'll pray the best for Japan. Tsunami hit Japan and an earthquake at a scale of 9.8 in over 140 years. If people can give up on others , why not the world? Natural disasters.

 It's been 2 days i didn't update my blogger. Interesting things had happen. On Wednesday , i  went to KL and had a quick trip to Shah Alam with my mum. I got to meet up with my old best buddies , Najlaa , Nick and Atiq :D OMG , we were making a lot of noise at Uncle K's place - we had lighten the place up with our laughs. And a funny thing had happen. It was a day trip. 

On Thursday , i went out with Lidya and Najib. Watched " I am Number Four"  and Alex Pettyfer can you please be even more hot , and be mine and only ? :3 HAHA.

p.s:// Daddy is coming home soon. This Sunday :')

 

Strut it.

It's 3.46 pm , Malaysia time and it's raining outside AND i think my boyfriend is sleeping. Anyway , yesterday i went out with mummy - we went shopping . I got myself a novel so that i won't get bored and stuff. Later , we went to Yamaha - music store to check out keyboards. I wanted a keyboard , and plus daddy had promise to buy it for me. So that i can bring it to college to practice my piano and keep me un-bored while i'm at college. And i fell in love with this black keyboard , and mummy ask " do you want this one ? " , and i just nodded. And the next thing you know it , she asked the person to take it down and put in a bag ! So yeah , i got a keyboard yesterday. While mummy  was paying it , it came to realize that - mummy would do anything for her daughter. On Friday , i had piano class , she entered my class cause she was feeling hot waiting in the corridor , and while my piano teacher asked about my exam and stuffs to my mum - when she started talking about college she wanted me to wait until September and felt like crying cause her only daughter and child is growing up too fast and she had wished that she could stopped time. But back to rewind , time will never stop as it goes around every 24 hours in a 365 day.
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I'm one of them - actually

It's 8.45 pm , Malaysia and i'm like forget you and i wish you the best. Today i had music class - me and mummy. Right after the music class , mummy drive thru McD and in the car she told me that her teacher praised her cause she can already play the piano , only for 2 weeks she can play. I told her it runs in the blood. Mummy only replied , " all of your uncle naz they are all good in music. They can play anything. Just name it. Piano ? Drums ? Guitar ? They have the talent and don't be surprised they don't even need a teacher " , then after 3 minutes of thinking she continued , " your late grandfather , he's good in music and he use to perform. He can sing , play the guitar , drums and also the piano " . So yes , all of these talents are brought down to his grandchildren. And i'm lucky to have these  talents actually. Even at first my dad thinks that music can't take me anywhere , but i believe that if you have passion and interest you will go far. I told mummy about the secret that i post videos on Facebook where i sing and told her that some of friends ask for songs request , and the only thing she replied , " so is there any music producer is calling you ? " . HAHA. Funnayh mummy. 


I miss you daddy again.


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Mama told me that we're all born as superstars

 " What would you tell me , if tomorrow will be my last day on earth ? - Me.

-" I'll tell you that i love you with my heart and soul till infinity and forever, there will be no one else in my heart except for you and my love for you will never ever fade and it's the only you that i want to own forever." - Najib.

It's 10.46 pm , Malaysia time and i'm thinking of doing a portfolio on my photos so that i have all of my good memories behind my palm of my hand. I'm going to college soon and biting my nails about the SPM results - duration of time and day is limited for me nowadays. And i vowed i ain't go out till i get my results - which means i'm having a big fat dilemma. 

I miss daddy. 

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