Friday, December 31, 2010

So long farwell i guess ?

It's 11.41 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm feeling SEXAYHh' as 2010 is about to come an end in about 15 mintues . 
Just got back from Kuala Lumpur. Hanged out with Sara , Eliyya and Alia. It's fun to have the good old times back :D !

My resolution for 2011 is NOT EVEN EVER TO SWEAR IN ANY TYPE OF SITUATION !

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HOPE THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE FOR 2011.
AND MAKE IT YOUR YEAR BABYEH ! :D jYEAAHHHHHHH ..

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Building dreams

It's 10.42 pm , Malaysia time and I'm so happy today. Malayia won the AFF Suzuki Cup yesterday night. 4-2 , Malaysia against Indonesia.

Today is 30th December , and i think it's about time i make my wishlist for 2011 . The hopes and dreams of mine in 2011.

1. Receiving good grades in SPM in March.
2. Hope to get a place in IPTA and get to do Diploma in Architecture.
3. Taking good care of my boyfriend , Najib.
4. Find a new hobby in my life.
5. Pray for the best for others.
6. Do better in my studies in college.
7. Drive the car like you own the streets but with manner .
8. Have more friends and make more friends.
9. WILL NOT SWEAR ! 
10.  I WILL NEVER EVER SWEAR .


And i think that is about enough - for my change in 2011.




Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The Last Note For You

It's 10.17 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm heart broken. It's crushed into pieces and i think that this is THE ultimate END. 

Receiving a text message around 12 in the morning , just to say whats in your heart and brain - doesn't think at all on how i will feel about it. Yes , i'll take whatever you said to me - tied with a big thank you. Thanks for everything especially the part - You regretted the most for loving me. Thanks :') I owe you big time. I might be childish , posting so that the whole wide world knows how bad it is. But HEY ! it's my place. It's my blog. And it's my thoughts. It's my feelings. Seriously , thank you . My heart is shattered on what you did. And i think it doesn't work even at once i cry with blood in my tears - cause everything you said will be  kept in me. You see - how bitter on what you did to me? You see my part in the relationship - and everything is my fault. MY FAULT. MY FAULT. 24/7 MY FAULT. MINE. MINE.MINE.MINE. *Thanks

You know who you are.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

This what all it matters to me

It's 4.19 pm , Malaysia time. Today's date 26th December 2010. We have only 5 days before new year is here. A new year , a new life that's what people say. 2011 , the start of a new refresh life with a better memory and take whatever opportunity that we have. The ups and downs that we had during 2010 , we will look back as a recap in life and take it as a moral value in life and do better. That's what people say . All of these things is said and done by every each human in life. 2010 is all a turning point of everything that we did and had. All of the sadness and happiness is put in a label called THE BITTERSWEET MEMOIR.

I want to recap everything that happen in my life 2010. And i hope that it won't bore you - i mean the readers of course. 
What happen during 2010 is that i learned  to live my life to fullest. But not till the fullest , 'cause 2010 i had my SPM exam. Which is Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia , where it is taken for 17 year old kiddo's to make big a step in life which is phasing the adult world - college or work.  I had my ups and downs in relationship with friends and whatsoever that happens to be close to me. I had a new kitten. I had ups and downs with my boyfriend , which is now my ex. Yes , we broke up. I know it's sad and heartbroken , but i'm very sure that we'd survive. Hey ! We still 2011 , guys. I had a quarrels with my parents. I had stress-fullness maximum volume in my life. But hey ! What to do ? We live in a world were stress is in very dictionary of every person , we just can't help it. I learned the way to treat people , to see way life in a different perspective. Sometimes talking to my mum as if i'm talking to a stranger. That's what happen , as I grew older - i don't see the way of life that were i was brought up to. Since i was small , i was exposed to different things - kids were playing video games , i was reading books. Kids were laughing , i sat alone in the corner playing my teddy bear. I am an only child. So i'm use to it.

2010. Senior year. MY SENIOR YEAR. Which at all i've never felt like a senior at all. I looked at my juniors and thought that , this  is my final year. Just have fun and study till the maximum and make my parents happy with my results. I was in and out in studies for a while now - no kidding. But hey ! We're humans and we do have failure's in life. Without failing , we won't learn anything in life - a saying in humans.  On 9th December 2010 , just right after my final paper of SPM - i'm very sure that i'm gonna miss my Convent life for 2 years and miss my high school friends and won't experience the same without them. My class was like a family in form 5. We shared laughter , naughtiness and sadness together. Pn Poh's leaving in 2009 , our little mischief in 2010 with one of our teachers and our classmate who makes us laugh in every moment. And we did share out stress together. 3 weeks before SPM , everybody was busy with themselves. Nobody dared to bother each other cause who might know - a tiger might RAWRRRR to you. Oh well , goodbye senior year in High School. 

2011 , hope your nice to me. 
Farewell 2010.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Well , excuse me !

" they love you and care for you. They want the best from you just like i do , and yes i love you " - byfie.

It's 11.05 pm , Malaysia time ; of course. And it's funnayh. I had problems at home today. It's irritating and annoys me. It's Christmas eve here. Tomorrow is Christmas. Too bad that Malaysia does not have kick-boxing day which is on the 26th December - if there was  it's like WE SHOP UNTIL WE DROP AND DADDY GOES TSK TSK .  Oh well , and yes everybody has a history in the their life.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Daring you makes me wanna kill you

It's 7.33 pm , Malaysia time.  AND MY LIFE IS SO F UP ! MY FREEDOM IS TOTALLY LIKE A BRICK WALL RIGHT BETWEEN ME - AGAIN! 

Memaki hamun is the way you when you get mad to me. Letting your anger on me. Shouting and screaming to me is the way you teach me the ways of life.


I have a heart , M.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Mend my broken hear after all

It's 4.37 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to The Script. And today i got to know and i want you to know - be strong 'cause i'll always be there for you. People change when time ticks every second - in one in a million. I miss you.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

This is weird

It's 5.47 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to the Love and Rockets - no new tales to tell.
I just got news that my dad is delaying his thought of buying me an iPod classic , AGAIN ! First i had to wait for a month to have just because i had my SPM on . And now he is delaying it again 'cause my mum wants a netbook (!) Man , what the hell. I have to wait - AGAIN ! GAH ! :O 

*i'm ok , and i'll survive. I'll move on in life , no worries folks.

Thursday, December 16, 2010

I will never forget you

After 2 days of coping with my sadness today i'm gonna blog. Me and boyfriend - we broke up. Why ? There's some reason , but i'm not ready to share with it you guys. This break up part is very hard and harsh. I can't stop thinking about him. I love you too much dearly.
 

Monday, December 13, 2010

No guts and have no game

It's 11.19 pn , Malaysia time. And some people know what person i am and which group i belong to - weird.
Gonna start get my driving license this week. On Thursday going to hear a 6 hours talk about the law of driving with Lidya and her sister, Nadya.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Somewhere here next to you





Watched a movie today with my friends. It was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow Part One. The story line was so freaking interesting. But i felt frustrated 'cause end of the movie , as it was part one. Which i have to watch for part two , which is like i have to wait for another year. This is frustrating. 

Then came lunch. And i didn't not meant to brag , but humans please with with ethics. I'm sorry , but it this what we are ? People who make mess , so that others don't feel comfortable to sit and eat (?) I hate going to food courts -.-

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Could not ever be late

It's 9.58 pm and SPM is totally over for me. I'm posting like 2 days late due to some circumstances. End of high school and hello to the big world.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Look away has the days past.

It's 3.45 pm , Malaysia time.  And right now i feel so f up. I just got a comment from an anonymous  on  last post and telling me that the experiment for paper 3 was all time presence of catalyst and not heat of combustion ! Argh , what was on my mind by then ? I'm getting mixed up with some easy stuff and making it more complicated. WTH. Or whatever , i think i'm gonna like have little marks for my paper 3 , but please please give a credit in it ! Or make the graph come down so that it's easy to get a good grade -.-"

I'm watching Twilight for the 5th time now , and i never get bored of it. Where in this place i'm supposed to be studying biology. 'Cause tomorrow paper is biology -.-" I went to sleep like twice already 'cause after all these times , i came to my senses that biology is actually boring -.-" heh. Soory biology-lover. I have 12 more hours -  i think - before the paper.  THIS IS HARD.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Go Meowww-Garrr

It's technically 10.14 pm , Malaysia time.  And i'm a geek tonight. I have my specs on tonight as my eye sight is getting a bit sore. Going to get contact right after my papers. And gonna color my hair brunette. It's these goals i need to get right after the papers of SPM. The paper - A PAPER - that would cost a lot later. 

I had chemistry paper today. Has yesterday post wanted you guys to wish me luck in it. OMG! . My chemistry paper 3 , is so freaking hard.  I nearly cried and i think i get only a passing grade for my chemistry. But please please , let the passing mark be credit or super credit. I need to at least get credit on  my chemistry and physics in order to be qualified in a course that i wish to pursue after March 2011. 

One thing i learned  today is that read all chapters ! Never ever ever ever , leave a single topic or sub-topic. 'Cause it's incredibly precious (!). I hate HEAT OF COMBUSTION , heh.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Every little piece of you fits in eventually

*right this is so F'ed up . I can't even put a photo in this post. This is sick - Whatever.*

It's like 8.14 pm , Malaysia time. I have like another 17 minutes to go before i offline and continue studying chemistry 'cause tomorrow i have chemistry paper going on -.-" I'm half freaking and half acting dead. I'm so f scared to take the paper tomorrow. My heart is beating so fast , and this does not look good. 

Saturday 
Started my day of being so lazy , wanted to go the library , but nobody had company me. So i had to scribble my thought of going to the library that morning.  But yesterday i mean Saturday was so freaking fun ! I persuade my mother to teach how to drive my car i mean the car right after we were on the way back buying the cat food at a nearby shop. So when we arrived at the house compound , my mother got out of the car and we exchanged seats. I was behind the wheels :) ! Then my mother tried to give me direction. Then out of nowhere , she started to freak out and told me " hit the break ! hit the break ! " . And i was like " whyyy ? chill . " She freaked out then she laughed.  Then i laughed and in the end she got behind the wheels and i was sitting back at the passenger seat. 

But something for sure about driving cars , cars are tremendously heavy ! -.-" Getting behind the wheels of a car is actually hard and you have to pay attention when you a drive car. My lesson is learnt here before actually getting behind the wheels !  Can't for like one more week , this week is end of my SPM papers :D Then the week later I might learn to drive a car with a proper instructor who doesn't go and urge you by saying " hit the break ! hit the break ! " then laugh (?) .

till now and then. Wish me luck. 
*And oh yeah , on Saturday i got to know that after all this time my mother wanted to be a police inspector but she wasn't qualified :( awwhh , too bad mummy ! But want to know something ? 
Even though my mother did not become a police inspector , she is the greatest mum in the whole wide world :) XoXo.


Friday, December 3, 2010

Living in a world of people

Hi.
I still have 3 more papers waiting for me. Chemistry , Biology and Literature in English. Then right after that - i can smell freedom :) Freedom i tell you ;) hee. If your wondering  how was my papers for this week : my answer to you is my papers were not nice at all . They were mean i tell you and i nearly to cried ! * drama queen *


Today i went to the library , and as far as you guys know : for the form 5 student the library is the new hang out place ;)   I studied Chemistry the whole time i was at the library -.-" I covered 3 chapters today ;) YEAY ! Tonight i'm gonna revise the others chapters which is like lot of chapter to go. Whatever.


You want to know something interesting ?
My girlfriend told me that i am " a person that who has originality and doesn't follow people " . 
Getting to know about myself from her is quite interesting. I mean i never thought i could bring  a big influence to them. As i see myself a girl who just like playing mean and thinks that this world belongs to her. I  just knew myself like one year time which i mean - this year. I knew myself. I know what i like. And yesterday i just got a wake up call that " Hey ! i'm a little brat after all ". 


And from  my point of view. We live in a world of people. Were  you wake up not everything seems bright. When you wake up every morning , not every person can get the chance to feel what i feel. Which went i go the kitchen - breakfast is waiting. Not for some people tho, every morning they wake up and feel that this world is not fair. You see ? Humans. Every person of mankind is different. We have ways we think , different in skin colour , different perspective on life , thoughts. And not everyone is the same.


And for me - my perspective is way different from my dad. I think a lot. Just like my dad. As people say " like son like father" . But in my way i say " like daughter like father". And my saying is : everyone gets a chance to feel life. It's either you have the sweet life or the bitter life. Your choice. And to see ways there's always two roads in life. One road will bring you to happiness and the other road my lead to bittersweet. Were bittersweet is the ups and downs in life. And chances were some people take it for granted.