Streets light are twinkling in the road

Surprised that i'm not updating my blog post with a picture ? 
Anyway - i've just studied Physics like 30 minutes ago and additional mathematics like 15 minutes ago. And 45 minutes altogether - i've just gave up doing my physics tuition homework. I'm going to finish it at school with Naddie. Oh , lately everything is on my mind. From my mother till my studies and SPM. I'm crying too easily nowadays. I sometimes keep a distance with my friends - by doing my own work. Maybe it's time that my brain is starting to say - nobody is going to help you , except you on your own , on this journey of being a person that you wish to be later. 

I'm worried about mama - she has this sickness which is not confirmed yet by the doctor - she might take some medication or be'll facing the blue room with doctors handing equipments around the room. 

I don't know why , but i'm crying inside - which in my heart it hurts. But i still keep on a smile and act that everything's ok. I'm faker , people. A big fat faker. 

I'm
Dead.
Good
Bye.

I'm waiting for my cell to beep

not everyone has a heart like you.
not everyone is pretty like you.
not everyone is better than you.
not everyone swears in front of public.
not everyone goes and make the other one feel like a looser.
not everyone likes you. 

Annual sports day is tiring.
Chemistry paper is like poop.
And this week is shit.

Please and Thank you.
And yeah , you do have life don't you ?

Can i have you ?

 

I hate when people , criticize others to fast without knowing the person first -.-"

I do  want is a BMW car - secondhand car would be ok , daddy :)

I do  want to play the guitar.

I do want to play an electric keyboard and get a keyboard. 

I do want the play the violin. 

And can't you see i have interest in music , it looks like i'm following my mothers side the most. 

And now , daddy gives me the opportunity to take music after SPM :-)

And i right now , i don't like to face my piano grade 7 practical next year April -.-"  

Midnight Noon i'm gonna catch you

Hi, i don't know why but i just like to leave my Mc Donald's Sundae cup ice-cream in the fridge for a whole night.
Hi, i've just watch College Road Trip for the 4th time now.
Hi, i'm a fatso. Even my boyfriend admits that and yet he does it in a proper way like " No your fat , your chubby and i love you". - Isn't he just so sweet adorable :)
Hi,i don't know why but i think some girls are pathetic , sorry ladies - as i am a girl too , so it doesn't make much more difference about whose pathetic and whose  not.
Hi,i know there's Indie musics , but never thought of Indie movies. What's next - Indie channel?
Hi,i don't know why people talk bad about each other. Is it fun or just for your own " ooooOO .. dark humour " ?
Hi, i know my boyfriend is now what you guy think he is - but still there are girls chasing me which makes me mad and frustrated. He's mine loser.
Hi, i think that this post is just a part of me and it's  oooOOOoo .. sarcastic - ing. Oh well , too bad - because you've just read it.

Goodbye my dearest cat :-(

R.I.P Manja , 
Died this morning , infront of the house. Buried behind the house under the pandan plant.

Dear Manja , 
                 We're going to miss you so much. The sexiest cat that we have and doesn't like to be hit by Robin Hood - that's you alright. With the high pitch meow , your high pitch meow will be remembered always. The cloth sucking because you were addicted of the cloth and the night that you kept me warm because you were sleeping on me. I'm really going to miss the most. Even if I had hatred you before , i never had hated you actually , you were pretty and you were close to mama. Mama is going to miss you dearly and me - surprised much ?  I never knew , that yesterday was you're last goodbye to me. I still remember the first day , that you brought in the family , with the little paws and the cute pink nose - adorable and cute. You were actually stuck under a van that the destination to our house , and the person ask us to keep you , we agreed.  The first time , you were like a stupid little kitten and days grew days , and years becomes years till today which is your 1 year and 6 months being with us. Be all your memoirs save with us , i will never forget you the sexy cat a.k.a Chihuahua of Paris Hilton :-( We love you ,

I fainted because you were too sweet

 " Compare that you were like the sun and i was the moon. You shine up in the day while i shine in the night , don't you see that we have something in common : we bright the earth , so that the dark would not win. We might be different but something in common is that we shine one thing which is the earth. And yes i do love you ,  just like the moon and sun shines :-) "

If i ever see you again

I got up to early this morning. I was worried about ze boyfriend , Dann. He didn't picked up my calls and replied my text - i called him around 3 am and surprisingly his brother picked up the phone. Had my breakfast and washed my school shoes , shocking? I know, Anyway went to TGV Ipoh and watched Alice In Wonderland with Lidya , Fariza and Praseetha. The movie was a two thumbs up - that's for sure :) I nearly fell down today - embrassing moment.  But thank God , it was a only a nearly which is near to fall.
Today i re-decorate my study section in my room. Here's the picture : 

Tomorrow well exactly like another 30 minutes till 12 am , it's ze boyfriend Birthday. 


HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18th ze BOYFRIEND , Dann Salleh ! :) 
With best wishes and best of luck , i'll pray for you and i love you each and everyday baby :) Your 18 now , hoping your future be well with the person you love . XOXO's . 

Someone call me honey 'cause i need sugar

Mama's in my room and waiting for ze boyfriend to call me - because he has been missing for 5 hours now.  
Tomorrow i'm going out , watch a movie - Alice in Wonderland. Would you like to join ? :-)
And yes, i've record a new cover, Scientist by Coldplay, going to download it soon.
Just made a book review for the Departure , the school newspaper. 
i can't stop thinking of him - updating my blog. 


It's like my mind is full with :
            " i love you byfie , i love you ,  i love you , i love you , i love you "

I love you yet your much more than that

My fingers are in sparkle and i'm updating my blog eventually. Right now is 1710 , and i don't usually do this 'cause right now i'll be texting and watching tele , which i'm doing it now except the part of texting - which my hands are free from the E63 'cause ze boyfie has headache , and he's trying to calm down with the ache in his head. Can't blame him on it.

Where have i been , oh where have i been. I've been to school , eating the same meal during recess and going to tuition with different subject everyday. Being a SPM candidate this year , kills me. I've done my monthly text papers , and for sure i'm going to loose in the game with the others. Oh i hate that part.Having to take ten subject for SPM papers , i might faint before taking it.

Holidays , oohh ahh the holidays. Alice in Wonderland anyone ? Yeah - i'm going to watch this Monday with my girlfriends. Going to the library and i have tuition. So i'm spending quite splendible.

Ze boyfriend did well in his SPM and trying to take up U . So good luck , baby :-) !

Having little time to go , i'll update it soon .

Just because you called me honey doesn't mean you owe me i have a boyfriend.

it's been ages till the last post i updated. I'm too busy with my own life - with little stupid problems and also studying for this upcoming exams. My monthly exam is going to be held another 2 days time - it's on Tuesday till Thursday. I hate when exams come , i got to study. I have like a bunch more papers to do - biology , chemistry , additional mathematics, physics , pendidikan islam , literature in english , PJK and sivik. You guys must be wondering where's bm , bi , sejarah paper - well i've did that on a Saturday school .

Right now i'm writing like a pop-corn , one word one pop ! What's been new in life was - i've recicted a peom in front of the class , was about to drop my Literature in English but i didn't , having fights with the boyfriend , boyfriend's SPM results this Thursday , watched Marley & Me for 2 times now - and every time the dog last breathe i cry , watched Rachel's getting married ( eventually) , bought a sandal , and thinking of going to ICOM ; The International College Of Music . And yes this time , with my hair in a mess , waiting for a text message i'll update my blogger right after my monthly test. Wish me luck :)