Streets light are twinkling in the road

Surprised that i'm not updating my blog post with a picture ? 
Anyway - i've just studied Physics like 30 minutes ago and additional mathematics like 15 minutes ago. And 45 minutes altogether - i've just gave up doing my physics tuition homework. I'm going to finish it at school with Naddie. Oh , lately everything is on my mind. From my mother till my studies and SPM. I'm crying too easily nowadays. I sometimes keep a distance with my friends - by doing my own work. Maybe it's time that my brain is starting to say - nobody is going to help you , except you on your own , on this journey of being a person that you wish to be later. 

I'm worried about mama - she has this sickness which is not confirmed yet by the doctor - she might take some medication or be'll facing the blue room with doctors handing equipments around the room. 

I don't know why , but i'm crying inside - which in my heart it hurts. But i still keep on a smile and act that everything's ok. I'm faker , people. A big fat faker. 

I'm
Dead.
Good
Bye.

I'm waiting for my cell to beep

not everyone has a heart like you.
not everyone is pretty like you.
not everyone is better than you.
not everyone swears in front of public.
not everyone goes and make the other one feel like a looser.
not everyone likes you. 

Annual sports day is tiring.
Chemistry paper is like poop.
And this week is shit.

Please and Thank you.
And yeah , you do have life don't you ?

Can i have you ?

 

I hate when people , criticize others to fast without knowing the person first -.-"

I do  want is a BMW car - secondhand car would be ok , daddy :)

I do  want to play the guitar.

I do want to play an electric keyboard and get a keyboard. 

I do want the play the violin. 

And can't you see i have interest in music , it looks like i'm following my mothers side the most. 

And now , daddy gives me the opportunity to take music after SPM :-)

And i right now , i don't like to face my piano grade 7 practical next year April -.-"