If this was a fairytale, you and i could be counting the stars tonight outside.
If this was a movie, you and i could be having a vacation together right now.
If this was a storybook, you and i would be on a honeymoon together - happily married.
Somehow i feel like i'm catching my own dream, hoping it will be mine and everything is going to be a-ok. But eventually, it's always back to reality and i'll be all alone. Loneliness that would make me ending up having tears in my eyes.
THIS SEMESTER BREAK IS SO FREAKING BORED.
To have and to hold.
To be there when sickness and happiness.
To take care in sick and wealth.
Words are stronger than affections.
As I cuddle inside my blanket and suddenly my tears runs down my face - that is when i know that i'm a girl who will just; hide away her happiness through her laughters.
Once you knew my history, and told me that you would make a change, and those words were kept by me ever since. Yet something's in life would never change. And yes, there are reasons why things happen in life, and this is one of them. When i just wish, time would pause so that I will have time.
Guessing i'm just hurt.
Hurt inside, and I'm sorry.
12th April 2012. Another cat had just passed away. Once there were 6 some of them, now there is only left 3.
Mengmeng died due to a sickness. The yellow sickness. It got attacked by virus. It had in it for months now. Yet, mama didn't understood it. Until yesterday. They put him in a drip and the doctor said mengmeng won't be long. Papa told mama that mengmeng was already 6 years. And it may die sooner or later.
So, the doctor called mama today. This morning. And they told her, that Mengmeng was no longer with us. The last day that mengmeng had gone was without me. Last week, was the last week that i would see it. And the last time that i touched it and made him go outside was 2 weeks ago, which i gave it a lovable gesture by carrying him out. He had never ever squealed when i pick him up.
I really hate the fact that i just hate taking it's photo. I, myself didn't know why. But all i know was, Mengmeng was there when i wasn't feeling alright. He would be with me.
And now, i'm shivering. Maybe the impact of it going away is even more harder than Robin Hood leaving us. I know it's only a cat. But i'm an only child, and i only had my cats to accompany me.
R.I.P Mengmeng. We will always love you no matter what. Take care of yourself while you're in heaven. xoxo.
