It's 10.42 pm , Malaysia time and I'm so happy today. Malayia won the AFF Suzuki Cup yesterday night. 4-2 , Malaysia against Indonesia.
Today is 30th December , and i think it's about time i make my wishlist for 2011 . The hopes and dreams of mine in 2011. 1. Receiving good grades in SPM in March. 2. Hope to get a place in IPTA and get to do Diploma in Architecture. 3. Taking good care of my boyfriend , Najib. 4. Find a new hobby in my life. 5. Pray for the best for others. 6. Do better in my studies in college. 7. Drive the car like you own the streets but with manner . 8. Have more friends and make more friends. 9. WILL NOT SWEAR ! 10. I WILL NEVER EVER SWEAR .
And i think that is about enough - for my change in 2011.
It's 10.17 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm heart broken. It's crushed into pieces and i think that this is THE ultimate END.
Receiving a text message around 12 in the morning , just to say whats in your heart and brain - doesn't think at all on how i will feel about it. Yes , i'll take whatever you said to me - tied with a big thank you. Thanks for everything especially the part - You regretted the most for loving me. Thanks :') I owe you big time. I might be childish , posting so that the whole wide world knows how bad it is. But HEY ! it's my place. It's my blog. And it's my thoughts. It's my feelings. Seriously , thank you . My heart is shattered on what you did. And i think it doesn't work even at once i cry with blood in my tears - cause everything you said will be kept in me. You see - how bitter on what you did to me? You see my part in the relationship - and everything is my fault. MY FAULT. MY FAULT. 24/7 MY FAULT. MINE. MINE.MINE.MINE. *Thanks
It's 4.19 pm , Malaysia time. Today's date 26th December 2010. We have only 5 days before new year is here. A new year , a new life that's what people say. 2011 , the start of a new refresh life with a better memory and take whatever opportunity that we have. The ups and downs that we had during 2010 , we will look back as a recap in life and take it as a moral value in life and do better. That's what people say . All of these things is said and done by every each human in life. 2010 is all a turning point of everything that we did and had. All of the sadness and happiness is put in a label called THE BITTERSWEET MEMOIR. I want to recap everything that happen in my life 2010. And i hope that it won't bore you - i mean the readers of course. What happen during 2010 is that i learned to live my life to fullest. But not till the fullest , 'cause 2010 i had my SPM exam. Which is Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia , where it is taken for 17 year old kiddo's to make big a step in life which is phasing the adult world - college or work. I had my ups and downs in relationship with friends and whatsoever that happens to be close to me. I had a new kitten. I had ups and downs with my boyfriend , which is now my ex. Yes , we broke up. I know it's sad and heartbroken , but i'm very sure that we'd survive. Hey ! We still 2011 , guys. I had a quarrels with my parents. I had stress-fullness maximum volume in my life. But hey ! What to do ? We live in a world were stress is in very dictionary of every person , we just can't help it. I learned the way to treat people , to see way life in a different perspective. Sometimes talking to my mum as if i'm talking to a stranger. That's what happen , as I grew older - i don't see the way of life that were i was brought up to. Since i was small , i was exposed to different things - kids were playing video games , i was reading books. Kids were laughing , i sat alone in the corner playing my teddy bear. I am an only child. So i'm use to it.
2010. Senior year. MY SENIOR YEAR. Which at all i've never felt like a senior at all. I looked at my juniors and thought that , this is my final year. Just have fun and study till the maximum and make my parents happy with my results. I was in and out in studies for a while now - no kidding. But hey ! We're humans and we do have failure's in life. Without failing , we won't learn anything in life - a saying in humans. On 9th December 2010 , just right after my final paper of SPM - i'm very sure that i'm gonna miss my Convent life for 2 years and miss my high school friends and won't experience the same without them. My class was like a family in form 5. We shared laughter , naughtiness and sadness together. Pn Poh's leaving in 2009 , our little mischief in 2010 with one of our teachers and our classmate who makes us laugh in every moment. And we did share out stress together. 3 weeks before SPM , everybody was busy with themselves. Nobody dared to bother each other cause who might know - a tiger might RAWRRRR to you. Oh well , goodbye senior year in High School.
