Your Pretty Little Nightmare

Something about mothers

2011-11-08T00:17:00.001+08:00

" I'm grateful to have you has my child, Naz. But you like to shop - buy new clothes, shoes, handbags non-stop."

- Mama.

Dear You, Yes You.

2011-08-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

" Do you want to know a secret of mine? Before i go to bed i will always read your blog. And by every each post that posted that i know you're lonely, the little things you do - i know i'm the right guy for you. To take care of you, to love you like nobody will ever love you, and i know that i will always be by your side every single day." - S.

People say a lot of things about me of changing guys when i get the chance to do so. But do you want to know something? Sometimes, you can't predict of things that happen in life which includes love. Love is a passion of a someone towards an object and subject. And has to love, it comes naturally and unpredictable. Might so i've been in and out of love sometimes - which even my mama knows about this, she will only say "It's only puppy love", but as days pass and sometimes you do know which is guy right for you.

I've been in a relationship with different types of guys. I've tasted the bitterness of having a boyfriend who will be there for you when he needs you but when you need him he doesn't even bother, the guy who used you just to get someone jealous, the guy of so called puppy love and he was cute and so, the guy who will make you happy but instead you used him cause you were lonely and the guy who will actually easy fall for other people and dumped you the next day. Yes, i've been in this kind of these relationship. Might so, mama knows about this. 3 out of 5 guy , which mama knows about them. And the only thing she will say to me is, " Naz, in anything you do. Please do remember mama and papa - before you act to do something."

27th June 2011 at 1.47 pm.
That is our date.

It took me quite a while in having another relationship - but as time past and his effort to take me as his girl. I knew that he could make me happy and all. " I stalked you to get to know you", " The first time i laid my eyes on you - i wanted to know you more each and everyday". Those were the words that are still captured in my mind everytime and whenever i'm with him. One month with him and my mum and dad knows about him - he will try his best to make me smile when the clouds are grey.

So who is he? (his name is directly up there -.-")
Whose the lucky guy?
Is he one of a kind?

Well, what i can you tell is that he is gentleman who knows how to cheer me up when i'm down. Do little surprises for me which makes me shrieks inside and smile the whole day. Make me laugh everyday on the phone, meeting him, having a sneak-out date and on Skype. And gives me butterflies every morning. And technically, he is the guy - who would do anything for you just to make you happy.

Dear you, yes you. You know that is post is directly for you and to you with a sealed heart and kisses from me to you.

Early in the morning, i think of you.

2011-07-15T01:58:00.001+08:00

So hey , i know it's been awhile ever since i update my blogger. Let say it has been months or say weeks to be precise. Yes, just got back in college. It has been 2 weeks now - it's my 2nd semester in Diploma in Architecture. This morning, my first assignment in Basic Design 1 has been presented with the help Aleen. May people say that true love only come once - but for me i guess it came trice. My friends may say that i might be a player or any shitty thing just like that - but might so what happen in the past stay in the past and sometimes it might be each other problems and such things. And might so i can tell you i fall in love quite a lot - but i guess this one is the true one. Yes i know i've been telling you guys each and ever guy i dated - he's the one. But right now, i know he is the one. Even each every day he tells me his flaws and all, but i accept him the way he is. So no worries, my dear boyfriend - I love you in every kind of way.

Your Loco Head.

2011-06-15T20:45:00.000+08:00

Hi and Hello. Yes i know it's been awhile i didn't update my blog - and you guys have must been thinking where i have been and everything. Well things were a mayhem - and i just couldn't find the time to update it. And yes , a lot of things had changed actually. About me and life. Where should i start ?

Well i'm single (?) Now that's surprising shall i say ? And yes it is true. I'm having my semester break right now - and left one more week for me to enjoy it before heading back to college on the 26th. About my license - i'm still a L . And don't ask me why. Mama's in Kuala Lumpur she has a course there right now and this week would be the last. I'm doing the chores at home - and it's freaking exhausted. I went to Bandung with papa and yes it was shopping heaven (Y). And the fun part was " Take whatever you like , Naz. " , said papa. Is that fun or what ?

And i do think i'm changing and i think i'm the type of girl who doesn't open up easily nowadays. Now where happen to the girl i use to know ?

xoxo.

" 101 things i learned in Architecture School "

2011-06-06T22:10:00.001+08:00

#101 - Architects are late bloomers.

Most architects do not their professional stride until around age 50 !
There is perhaps no other profession that requires one to integrate such a broad range of knowledge into something so specific and concrete. An architect must be knowledgeable in history, art , sociology , physics , psychology , materiality , symbology, political process , and innumerable other fields, and must create a building that meets regulatory codes, keep out the weather , withstand earthquakes, has functioning elevators and mechanical systems , and meets the complex functional and emotional needs of its users. Learning to integreate so many concerns into a cohesive product takes a long time, with lots of trial and error along the way.

If you're going to be in field of architecture, be in it for the long haul. It's worth it.

Rewind and Play

2011-05-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

It's 9.01 pm , Malaysia time and i think i have to make a confession here.
First is i miss home.
Second is i want to pursue my studies in music.

Third is about my status relationship. So all of you know that i have a new guy in my life. So people have been talking about it , for the first week that we've been dating and everything. And now it's been a month already and it's counting days and night and each day of it , we - me and him we cherish it every moment of it. With him i'm special. With him i can forget the past that i had . The memories that me and my ex captured , i forgot every bit of it. Wanting to start a new book in my relationship , and it did. Thanks for the help of him.

So here goes. The first man , that mama and papa seem to be cool with it. The first man , that can make me smile every single day with his cute , lovey dovey messages. The first man , that i know that he will always be there. The first man , that i know he will listen to all my problems and just laugh at me after listening to it - which is kinda weird but cute. The first man, that flirted with me by asking me to hear a song - which my friend did interpretation part by saying " Saff , he likes you lah " ., and by then i was giddy inside. The first man , that always make me laugh even it's been a month but i know that he will make me laugh forever. And the first man , that i know that he wants a true relationship - which i want in a guy after all this time and it's not me whose doing the job but me AND him , together. Shall we stay for infinity together , my man ? Well i think we should as we need each other in our lives. Fendy.

Sincerely , your truly only girl ,
Your Girlfriend ♥

For the broken hearts out there

2011-05-05T10:46:00.000+08:00

Hi and it's 10.28 am , Malaysia time. I think this makes it my fifth post posting it early in the morning. I won't point fingers on this post but all i know is every break up there's a reason. And i talk with my own experience being in love and in the end of the road we made our own pathway in the end. So it's a normal thing , when it comes to relationships. That one day - we fall in love and later die of love. Then there's the part where the girl tries to fix everything but the guy does care less about the relationship. Later, there's the part where the girl cries in the dark while the guy goes out with his buddies and have fun.

Later than that , the girl doesn't care less but then the guy comes and care about it. Frustrated don't you think ? First it was the girl , but the guy doesn't even give a damn. Later the girl don't give a damn , but the guy comes crawling back. Sometimes guys do acts like jerk which is such a bummer. Every relationship that i had, it gave me a lesson to be learn. Don't easy fall for guys. Not every guy is the same. Every guy has their own ways. Without parents acceptation , the relationship won't work - i still believe in these things. A guy will make the best to keep you smile , and make you sad in the end. And every break up there is a reason. Might so , you will find a better man than him. Well i did :')

As i talk based on my past relationship - i was in love with a guy. A guy who i thought who can make me happy. But in the end , he broke my heart into pieces with his attitude. He was a jerk. When i wanted things to be over , the he comes crawling back. Then he does the same thing over and all over again. There ? Told you he was jerk. He acts like a jerk , when he's with his friends. He could act like a jerk when i have a problem. That was the most hardest part i had with him. Who is he ? Shall i say , it's a secret to be kept.

Whenever i'm in love , it's the part where i let the guy does all the stuff. The flirting and everything. We may be friends for a few weeks and later we could be in a relationship. People say , i change guys to easily. Then there's the part where we come in and say " It's only the matter of time and fate. We might be made for each other. So why don't you grab the chance and be with him ? ".

Sometimes , people may judge you differently.

x.

When sometimes it's complicated

2011-04-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hi , it's 9.58 pm - Malaysia time and mummy is getting mad at me because of going out to often while i'm in college. The matter is i'm not okay about it is because i told her about it at the first place and she took it easy , and the next thing you know it - she's mad like a bull. I might be very rude but it's the truth. Now mummy wants me to be back in Ipoh. Only God knows how pissed i am. It's not that i didn't tell her but i do tell her every single thing i do. Who i'm going out with and everything.

I just got back from a fun with time with my college mates. We went all the way to Sunway - which i told mummy earlier at the first place - and later she got pissed ! And i'm being emo with the boyfriend :B

xx

When it's about time.

2011-04-22T23:30:00.000+08:00

hi and it's 11.20 pm , Malaysia time. It's been awhile i didn't update my blog. The reason why is cause i was busy with college life. When you have everyday occupied except for Thursday , Saturday and Sunday. Even if I have 2 subjects literally , by night i'm free but i still did not even touch my blog. And the simple reason is and was - Lazy. Lazy. Lazy. I was just playing to LAZY.

I think it's about time i tell you the person who stole my heart which we use to be strangers during our high school days. During my high school days , we were strangers and i didn't knew him at all but i knew i had a crush on him. And as days past , i knew it will be possible for me to have him. So from that moment, i just put the hopes behind the walls that occupied all of my crushes that i know that i couldn't get. And has fate bought us together this year. We became closer even through via cyber. I was technically in Ipoh while he was in Shah Alam. But that didn't matter at all. It's been weeks now , we've been seeing each other and getting to know each other better. And i know that everyday , everynight , every single moment minute or time when i'm with him - he makes me head over heels. I'll be all giddy inside and i know that he will make me smile even times are rough. XX. Whatever lies between us , let me and him only know.

x.

Eventually, you grow up.

2011-04-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

It's 7.30 pm , Malaysia time and it's been awhile since i ever updated my blog. Anything new in life ? Well LOADS. Currently , i'm in college - Kuala Lumpur Infrastructure University College (KLiUC) taking up Diploma in Architecture. Classes begins tomorrow at 2pm and well for the first sem. i only have 2 subjects which is technical drawing I and graphic communication. And i'm thinking i'm having home sickness and i miss my mum so much. My auntie had died in Mekah , i just got the news this morning from mama - Al Fatihah. I've made new friends here and they're extremely friendly and yet i miss my friends back Ipoh and my bed !

x.

You could never predict.

2011-04-05T13:36:00.000+08:00

So it's been 2 weeks now , like whatever. It's 1.28 pm , Malaysia time and i'm over with Najib. You guys MUST be surprised , don't you ? Well i have my own reason why i broke off with him on the first place. Sometimes i just couldn't predict what's going on with me sometimes - JUST CAN'T. Sometimes i turn out to be a big bitch next i'm the big angel. But i'm FINE , alright ? so whose the next boy of mine ? Well see it in my Facebook account ;) And plus we've couple recently 2 days , including today.

And don't you think , it's annoying that you have a person - monitoring you for 24/7 hours ,

The Emotional Side of Me.

2011-03-30T16:45:00.000+08:00

Once you had dream , a dream to be anything that you want. Either a rockstar or a princess - you have a dream. And now the dream of your dream is about to happen. I'm 18 this year , getting my driving license done and soon i'll be driving my car. Going to of college. College. The first word that pops in my mind when a person says " College " is homesick. That's right.

On Monday , i was getting ready and all of a sudden my mum took my comb and she brushed my hair. I felt like a 5 year old again. I miss the moments when i was a toddler. Everything seem sweet. No problems were around me. The only thing i knew was waking up in the morning , going out with my mum and the next thing I knew it i will get a teddy bear from her and a kiss from my dad.

But now , i'm a teenager . I rarely tell my secrets to my parents. As my mum think that when i tell her my secrets , she will act cool in her way but for me it's not cool. Though , i really appreciate her to act cool with it. But i know i have my limits. Cause people said to her , " to be close to your child whose growing up , you should make her your friend. Your best friend " , though it's true . But sometimes , it's just annoying. My dad is cool , when i talk with him , he just keep quiet and listen and the next thing i know it - he will make fun of me. Yeah , that's my parents. I'm the only child , so whatever happens - it's between me and just my parents no one else .

I'm going of to college soon. And i'm having this thoughts of what's going to happen at home and everything. And i'm thinking the first thing that will approach me is " HOMESICKNESS".

x.

Cranky double it.

2011-03-27T21:07:00.001+08:00

It's 8.58 pm , Malaysia time and my clock is running fast - i have approximately about 2 weeks before i leave for college and pursuing my studies in Architecture. That's right folks i'm leaving soon. OMGosh , it felt like yesterday i still had mama to send me to school and salam my dad in the morning before i leave school. There you go - time runs fast these days. And that's what the scientist also says.

And about my SPM results , it was quite delighting to see. And except the fact that i got A and A- for my English studies - typical normal for me. While a BM i got a B :( How devastated i felt on that day , and ever wondered how i went on that day ? Well let me say, I didn't cry that day but i nearly did. But my mind was set , that i'm going to feel calm and good about the results - and it was accomplish :)

And about today , i went to KLiUC open day and yes , my parents are confirming about sending me there and i felt a little bit sad 'cause this is my first time i'm going to leave home for real. Oh well. Papa just bought me a MacBook Pro :) and YES I FEEL HAPPY :') *it's a preparation before entering college - FYI.

x.

When everything seem to be out of place

2011-03-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

It's 9.47 pm , Malaysia time and for a 17 year ++ old girl , i should be worrying about one thing which is my SPM results. Even you see me happy and having fun at times but i hide the worrying behind my face. People say i have slimmed down and my mother responds " She's worried about her results " . And this is true to tell you , to be exact. Today is 20th March , on Wednesday is 23rd March. On that day , it's either i have a happy face or a sad face or just a plain face. And the exact words that i will hear from my parents are - it's either they will get upset or be proud. Which it's bring me stress when i think about it even it takes a sec.

So i've made up my mind today. I'm gonna take it easy. I'm not going to stress myself cause what have been done is done. You can't take it back unless you have a time machine which that can take me back in November/December of 2010. Just hope that everything is going to be fine. And i pray that what i've done on my paper last year made an effort. It took me ages to understand chemistry. It took me months to understand waves in physics and electroincs. It took me days to understand the meaning of the act of catalyst in an experiment. And it took me FOREVER to understand the concept of add maths. Wish me all the best.

x.

He knows to make me happy.

2011-03-19T22:35:00.001+08:00

" I will give all my love to you , if that's what you want. I will give you all my love to make you happy and smile as the sun shines in the morning while the moon shines at night. I love you till the last breathe of mine. "

And if i can i will blog about you , ALWAYS. Cause i'm a girl , and that's what i do best. And Yes , i'm in love.

Could everyday be the sweetest day EVER ?

2011-03-17T10:58:00.000+08:00

It's 10.53 a.m , Malaysia time and my boyfriend commented on pink fingernails , and he said " why you colored your nails pink ? " . Yesterday , I went out with my babes - Praseetha and Lidya and the boyfriend , Najib. We watched Big Momma like Father like son. And OMG , the movie was killer hilarious and YES EVERYBODY in the cinema couldn't stop laughing. So like Lidya said , " this was the first time after awhile of watching a movie , it's a comedy now and it was a worthwhile " . Even our seats were so in front - in front the screen -.-" TWO THUMBS UP FOR BIG MOMMA 3 :D OW OW OW OW.

Heads up.

2011-03-11T21:56:00.000+08:00

It's 9.46 pm , Malaysia time and I'm sorry of what happen and i'll pray the best for Japan. Tsunami hit Japan and an earthquake at a scale of 9.8 in over 140 years. If people can give up on others , why not the world? Natural disasters.

It's been 2 days i didn't update my blogger. Interesting things had happen. On Wednesday , i went to KL and had a quick trip to Shah Alam with my mum. I got to meet up with my old best buddies , Najlaa , Nick and Atiq :D OMG , we were making a lot of noise at Uncle K's place - we had lighten the place up with our laughs. And a funny thing had happen. It was a day trip.

On Thursday , i went out with Lidya and Najib. Watched " I am Number Four" and Alex Pettyfer can you please be even more hot , and be mine and only ? :3 HAHA.

p.s:// Daddy is coming home soon. This Sunday :')

Strut it.

2011-03-06T15:53:00.000+08:00

It's 3.46 pm , Malaysia time and it's raining outside AND i think my boyfriend is sleeping. Anyway , yesterday i went out with mummy - we went shopping . I got myself a novel so that i won't get bored and stuff. Later , we went to Yamaha - music store to check out keyboards. I wanted a keyboard , and plus daddy had promise to buy it for me. So that i can bring it to college to practice my piano and keep me un-bored while i'm at college. And i fell in love with this black keyboard , and mummy ask " do you want this one ? " , and i just nodded. And the next thing you know it , she asked the person to take it down and put in a bag ! So yeah , i got a keyboard yesterday. While mummy was paying it , it came to realize that - mummy would do anything for her daughter. On Friday , i had piano class , she entered my class cause she was feeling hot waiting in the corridor , and while my piano teacher asked about my exam and stuffs to my mum - when she started talking about college she wanted me to wait until September and felt like crying cause her only daughter and child is growing up too fast and she had wished that she could stopped time. But back to rewind , time will never stop as it goes around every 24 hours in a 365 day.
x.

I'm one of them - actually

2011-03-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

It's 8.45 pm , Malaysia and i'm like forget you and i wish you the best. Today i had music class - me and mummy. Right after the music class , mummy drive thru McD and in the car she told me that her teacher praised her cause she can already play the piano , only for 2 weeks she can play. I told her it runs in the blood. Mummy only replied , " all of your uncle naz they are all good in music. They can play anything. Just name it. Piano ? Drums ? Guitar ? They have the talent and don't be surprised they don't even need a teacher " , then after 3 minutes of thinking she continued , " your late grandfather , he's good in music and he use to perform. He can sing , play the guitar , drums and also the piano " . So yes , all of these talents are brought down to his grandchildren. And i'm lucky to have these talents actually. Even at first my dad thinks that music can't take me anywhere , but i believe that if you have passion and interest you will go far. I told mummy about the secret that i post videos on Facebook where i sing and told her that some of friends ask for songs request , and the only thing she replied , " so is there any music producer is calling you ? " . HAHA. Funnayh mummy.

I miss you daddy again.

X.

Mama told me that we're all born as superstars

2011-03-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

" What would you tell me , if tomorrow will be my last day on earth ? - Me.

-" I'll tell you that i love you with my heart and soul till infinity and forever, there will be no one else in my heart except for you and my love for you will never ever fade and it's the only you that i want to own forever." - Najib.

It's 10.46 pm , Malaysia time and i'm thinking of doing a portfolio on my photos so that i have all of my good memories behind my palm of my hand. I'm going to college soon and biting my nails about the SPM results - duration of time and day is limited for me nowadays. And i vowed i ain't go out till i get my results - which means i'm having a big fat dilemma.

I miss daddy.

SO true is it ?

2011-02-28T22:02:00.001+08:00

It's 9.57 pm , Malaysia time and Najib is such a day-dreamer boyfriend. Today mummy had a meeting , when she got home , she had news for me.

Mummy : Naz .
Me : yeah ma , why ?
Mummy : You wanna know something?
Me : Yeah ma, what is it ?
Mummy : My friend told me that your face looks like Yuna , the singer.
Me : HAHA. *are you serious mummy ? *

So yeah , mummy's friend thinks that i look alike with Yuna -.- Interestingg rightt ?

Behind those lines I say

2011-02-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

It's 11.04 pm , Malaysia timing and yes i just got out of the toilet when this idea struck.

So when a person asks you , " do you have a blog ? ". And the only answer that you can give , " yes , i do have one. " And when a person asks you what's the main theme of your blog then you go all " errkk - ehhmmm - well - *just keep quiet and smile* " . So yes i'm one of those person when a person asks me - what's the main theme of your blog.

I think it's funny when you have blog where you share your own daily life stories with different kind of people and hearts. So where did this idea of having a blog struck into my mind. Well it all happen when i was in form 1 - more precises 13 years old. I was 13 when i had my first blog. Cause by that age , i thought of my life of uncontrollable and it seemed wild to me. But for some people , it didn't. I changed to a girl - practically and mind and emotions. I started to dress like a girl and loved the color pink. So here you go , puberty hit me !

What do i mostly share on my blog. As far as you readers can see i mostly blog about myself . ONLY ABOUT ME. I talk about the world , the love life , the sadness , the happiness , the i-hate-you situation and much much more. So mostly, generally all about me. If your thinking , about not-to-read my blog anymore - think twice cause everything in my life as the do and don't. And everyday i learn something. As for example , like today i learned that no human will ever admit their mistakes and will ever keep on blaming others. See told you ?

As for this year - 2011. I'm 18 years old. And it's been 5 years having my blogger and everything is kept into my blogger. Where I share about myself to others. The way i write - shows the mood i'm having in a day. So here i am , to say a big a thank you for the readers who read my blog , and will never get tired on anything that i write. Love you guys.

X.

" Hey DJ , give me a beat "

2011-02-25T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hey , it's 10.56 pm , Malaysia time. Tomorrow is sports day for my high school and i feel envy for my juniors getting ready. Daddy is going tomorrow for the event and not me 'cause i'm stuck having an autoCAD class at 8.00 am until lunch time. Screw you. Today i had piano class and i think my teacher asked me to sing in the next class - and i'm still deciding a song to sing and play. Any ideas ? Mummy is starting to play the piano. So yeah , it runs in the blood. Except for daddy.

x.

We could have it all - Rolling in the Deep

2011-02-24T22:06:00.001+08:00

" If you captured your life in snapshots, what would it look like ? "
- Well for me it would look like a girl who has a big laugh and knows how to have fun with her girls and boyfriend. Another thing is my world revolves around my parents and my cats and my friends and also my boyfriend. Besides that, tears will be leaked everytime somethings just go wrong and things doesn't go my ways - so yeah , i'm a brat. THANK YOU.

It's 10.02 pm , Malaysia time and it's been 2 days i didn't open my novel - Dibius Cinta. Anyway yesterday. As we are 18 , we were legal to watch 18 above movies. So yeah , yesterday was the first movie that me and my girlfriends and Najib watched a 18 above movie and it was Sanctum 3D. The 3D effects was so cool and yes everyone of us had goose bumps cause everything seems so real.

x.

Someone like you and it's you

2011-02-22T20:40:00.000+08:00

It's 8.30 pm , Malaysia time and my nails a red-pinkish in color - i think it's too adorable cute. It's been awhile i've been updating my blogger. I've been lazy updating my blogger and everything in my social network. As times past , i came to my senses that i actually have a life . Interesting. I don't have my driving license till today and don't ask me why. The reason is simple - i don't want my parents get mad at me even though i've already have a car. And yes , everyday as day past by - my feelings will grow and love you even more.

x

Lover of the love

2011-02-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

It's 8.32 pm , 14th February - Malaysia time.

" You look cute and adorable when you smile. And i love it. " - Najib Hassan

It's kinda funny to know that when you wake up every morning there's always a person who will wish a good morning.
It's kinda fun to know every day is a day to share with the person you love most.
It's kinda hilarious to know when your in a fight and after 10 minutes you know you will make up and say sorry.
It's kinda funny when no one wants to put down the phone and the boyfriend will get mad at you.

I like the way you smile to me when i'm down.
I like the way when we both laugh at our stupid and lamest joke ever.
I like the way you sweet talk me when i'm sulking with you.
I like the way you always know that i will do my best in everything i do especially playing the piano.
I like the way you talk about your hobbies and have the language that you and your friends would understand.
I like the way you make smile and make me happy even at time i just feel like killing you.
I like the way you hold me in your arms and protect me from these sadness of the world.
I like the way you kiss my forehead and smile to me every kisses you give.
I like the way you sing to me on the phone especially the song " Enjit Enjit Semut" .
I like the way you treat me as if i'm the only princess on earth.
I like the way you yawn on the other side of the phone - it's cute.
I like the way you when get mad at me just because i didn't take my medication when i'm sick.
I like the way when you get angry cause i can't stop from hitting you with a teddy bear.
I like the way when you have a fierce face.
And yes to admit - i like you and i love you till the bottom of my heart , Najib.

It's 14th February. It's a two in one date actually. It's Valentine's Day and also our anniversary. It's Monday and yes i think i'm having my flu back. HELP !?

I will hold you even for a million years

2011-02-10T21:53:00.001+08:00

It's 9.48 pm , Malaysia time and I just did a cover by Adele ( Make you Feel my love ) . Feel free to watch it at Facebook but i think the video is private - so too bad. Anyway , yesterday i went out with Najib and my girlfriends - Diana , Lidya and Praseetha. We watched a movie yesterday - Yogi Bear. And yes to admit , i laughed the whole way of the movie which directly it looked me like 5 year old watching cartoon. How humiliating infront of the boyfriend , Najib. But to tell you , Yogi Bear movie - i will give it a 10 star rating and i want to watch it again and again and again until i fall asleep infront of the screen. HAHA. Told you it's addictive. And BTW , it was a Yogi Bear promise :3

And guess what ?! Najib gave me this cute bear yesterday.

Yes , i love you truly Najib :)

The pinky promise doesn't work

2011-02-05T20:39:00.000+08:00

It's 8.33 pm , Malaysia time and this how reality works. My ex boyfriend has a new girlfriend and i feel frustrated even i have Najib , the boyfriend with me to be there for me. Yes i still love Najib but i don't know what's wrong with me. I need help. My eyes can't even spell the word of SMILE. All of my friends told me that i should get over him - the ex. And yes my dear friends , I WILL GET OVER HIM.

Can you hear me crying for help ?

2011-01-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

It's 9.30 pm , Malaysia time. And the most part i hate about high school is my year book photo. It's either too chubby or too horrible. Yesterday night , me and Najib we had an actual fight ! And yes , it was horrible. It was a misunderstanding which was till the morning. Then today morning and i received a cute text message from him - " Good Morning , my baby love :-) ". So yes , we are ok ;) Yesterday night , was damn rough. I ain't going there again.

I love this Sunday like i heart my boyfriend

2011-01-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

It's 6.58 pm , Malaysia time and i like the part where people wish for better place. Mommy got me a Polaroid camera. The FujiFilm instax7mini is officially mine. Mommy got the pink one which is extremely cute. HEE. And i think i need to buy films more soon.

My baby is all i need and more

2011-01-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

No, I don't need no fancy cars
And I don't need no diamond rings
My baby is all I need and more
'Cause I don't need those extra things

It's 10.46 pm ,Malaysia time. And yes I love you , Najib. There I admit it ! :3 Hihi. And i feel sorry for my friend , cause of a stupid guy she had to go through this mess. I'm sorry :(

Ever wondered if you had the same feeling

2011-01-19T22:02:00.000+08:00

" no wonder ajib's stuck with you! he's hooked to your voice! " - Taqiuddin Yazid , Facebook Friend

It's 9.55 pm , Malaysia time and i wish that my dad would have gave me a green light in music as my career. HEE. I've just made a cover from Bruno Mars - Count on Me , which was dedicated especially for my friends in Shah Alam and Ipoh. I got good comments from them , Thanks a trillion love ones. And i just got to know , one of my friends requested another song for me to sing. I'll try my best aite , love ? Me and Najib , the boyfriend. Are making good progress , i MEAN WE ARE IN A GOOD RELATIONSHIP. And i now can see things more clearly , by the way he treats me and tries to make me happy when i act like a baby.

Fly super high

2011-01-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

" Even i have my friends right on my side , my cats are still the best to comfort me when i'm sad and lost in thoughts. "

It's 9.24 pm , Malaysia time and i can't forget the past. I don't know whether i should write it here or not. My mind and thoughts are not in a place anymore. It's everywhere. I don't know why. I couldn't sleep last night . I don't know it's the cause of watching a horror movie in the afternoon with my friends or my mind is not in place. I keep having these bad dreams , of Najib running away from me. And yes yesterday i couldn't put a smile on my face -

Getting the versatile job

2011-01-13T22:48:00.001+08:00

" To be a good architect is to think about consumers. The people who might use your design building for the living. Think to arrange stuff to have ease and not burden them. And that what keeps you to be a good architect. " - Uncle Johan.

It's 10.39 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm so exhausted. I just got back from Kuala Lumpur a site visit on KLIUC campus in Kajang. So yes , i've already made up my mind - i'm taking Diploma in Architecture after taking my SPM result this March. If i get a place in UiTM or UTM or Politeknik - i might go there. But if not , it's confirm - i'm going to KLIUC to further my studies in architecture. It was good to hear that , architecture is based on Arts and not science , so yes i can be a little relax , spread my ideas and yet stress about assignments and other rest in colleges stuff. The lecturers in KLIUC - they are so friendly and nice and i think i'll might cope with the environment there much easier - i think. But i don't know, my mind is all over the place. I can't think which place to go yet to do my Diploma. This is so hard. WHY DO STUDIES HAVE TO BE HARD ? WHY CAN'T I MAKE A CHOICE BETWEEN IPTA OR IPTS ?

The right pathway

2011-01-09T22:05:00.000+08:00

It's 9.47 pm , Malaysia time. And yes i think SUBWAY is the place to get your lunch. Anyways , dad and me have made a plan on my further studies. Yesterday, i went to the Education Fair that was held in Kuala Lupur Convention Centre. And i got all the info's on the colleges that i might enter , if i don't get a place in an IPTA. So my dad gave me choice yesterday - it was either i KLMU or Limkowing to further my studies in Architecture. And yes , dad did give me another option and i decide my 2nd option is Mass Communication and the 3rd option is Music. And this is Diploma. So yes , me and dad did all the work out even results is like 2 months away , but it's better to do it now , before it's too late and waste another year thinking.

Let me tell you something and keep it a secret aite ?

2011-01-07T16:49:00.001+08:00

It's 4.31 pm , Malaysia time and my dad headphone's - OMG ! The bass is SO TERRIFIC ! :D :D I love this headphone ! Anyways , you wanna know something ? Yesterday was MY BAD DAY ! OMG , I had a bad day. First , i waited for the person to pick me and my friend , Wilson for say 35 minutes. Second , i did my computer test for the car thingy - and i FAILED ! Third , my mum could not pick me up after the exam and i had to walk home until Tunku Abdul Rahman school. Fourth , when i was walking it started to rain ! OH GOSH ! Fifth , my mum's oven burst into shattered glasses ! And oh - Sixth , i had a fight with Najib. HOW INTERESTING. I think this all the fault because of the number 7 ! And you guys must be wondering why does the number 7 got to do with this - well , i got the number 7 for waiting to take turn. And it all happen after that.

And OH YEAH !As i remembered , mum laughed at me when i failed the computer test and dad gave me a smirk when he knew the news and laughed - THANKS ALOT GUYS ;') WTH. Thank God ! Today i passed the computer test but not with flying colors. But hey ! I passed alright ;) And my dad said - CONGRATULATIONS . haha , FUH-UH-NAYH !

And yesterday , the number six conflict - i had a fight with Najib , thingggyy. Well yes we did , we had a fight. A bad one tho - i think. And we nearly broke up. OH GOSH! .

P.s // i think my fingers are long -.-" When did this happen lah ? And yes i am Malaysian. HEH ?!

Numbers to name you

2011-01-04T21:18:00.000+08:00

It's 9.12 pm , and my ex boyfriend is on the battle on his life - he's in a coma. I'll pray for you. Down here are the opinions on what my friends thinks about me ;)

#1214 : she's a really good friend and i love her so much ! mak bapakk dia is so NICE . duuh ! tengok la anak dia sape . keep it touch eh ♥ - Atiq Afsar

1009 - i still remember how we met,at school masa form 1 time assembly. u tegur i dulu,then we have a little chat. x ingat pasal apa. and then dpt kelas lain soo dah x tegur each other. masa form 3 sama kelas! :D not long after that u pindah soo x dapat nak rapat. haha. i like ur photography though. and ur hair! :D keep in touch~ - Shahafiqa

1093-omg.ilovethisgirl.die lah my gossip partner,wlpn org mcm i xgossip sgt.first i know her,sorry to say but i dont really like you.haha.sombong kott.nta mcm mne,ttbe ktorg in 1 grp plak.ceh,then almost every night you call i.takut jgk bazir kredit u.ktorg suka gosip smpaikn we crush the same guy.oppsie!hihi.btw,she's... a nice,creative,and suke gile gelak. now dah 2 years dh tak jumpe.imysm :') take care hunny - Hadhinah Helmi

#14123.LALING..i meet her on FB.she speaks Eng awesomelyyy.her life is almost like me.she love cats like me.i give her opinions and the secret of a happy relationship..'i think i do'.and we talk interesting stuff together..
a little awkward talking guys stuff with a girl.but it is so awesome to get a buddy like her.hahaha..anyway#14123.....i ♥ u as a long distance buddy!!! - Zane Barker

Welcome home , hommie

2011-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

It's 9.21 pm , Malaysia time. And guess what ? This is my first post in the year of 2011. Today dad took us on a road trip to Penang and yes we did some shopping. It's been awhile , i did not shop 'cause i've been busy with my life and dad was busy with his. I got myself new sneakers from Everlast , a cute shirt that has a face of a cartoon mexico-an and a grey pants.

So long farwell i guess ?

2010-12-31T23:44:00.001+08:00

It's 11.41 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm feeling SEXAYHh' as 2010 is about to come an end in about 15 mintues .
Just got back from Kuala Lumpur. Hanged out with Sara , Eliyya and Alia. It's fun to have the good old times back :D !

My resolution for 2011 is NOT EVEN EVER TO SWEAR IN ANY TYPE OF SITUATION !

HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HOPE THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE FOR 2011.
AND MAKE IT YOUR YEAR BABYEH ! :D jYEAAHHHHHHH ..

Building dreams

2010-12-30T22:46:00.000+08:00

It's 10.42 pm , Malaysia time and I'm so happy today. Malayia won the AFF Suzuki Cup yesterday night. 4-2 , Malaysia against Indonesia.

Today is 30th December , and i think it's about time i make my wishlist for 2011 . The hopes and dreams of mine in 2011.

1. Receiving good grades in SPM in March.
2. Hope to get a place in IPTA and get to do Diploma in Architecture.
3. Taking good care of my boyfriend , Najib.
4. Find a new hobby in my life.
5. Pray for the best for others.
6. Do better in my studies in college.
7. Drive the car like you own the streets but with manner .
8. Have more friends and make more friends.
9. WILL NOT SWEAR !
10. I WILL NEVER EVER SWEAR .

And i think that is about enough - for my change in 2011.

The Last Note For You

2010-12-28T22:29:00.000+08:00

It's 10.17 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm heart broken. It's crushed into pieces and i think that this is THE ultimate END.

Receiving a text message around 12 in the morning , just to say whats in your heart and brain - doesn't think at all on how i will feel about it. Yes , i'll take whatever you said to me - tied with a big thank you. Thanks for everything especially the part - You regretted the most for loving me. Thanks :') I owe you big time. I might be childish , posting so that the whole wide world knows how bad it is. But HEY ! it's my place. It's my blog. And it's my thoughts. It's my feelings. Seriously , thank you . My heart is shattered on what you did. And i think it doesn't work even at once i cry with blood in my tears - cause everything you said will be kept in me. You see - how bitter on what you did to me? You see my part in the relationship - and everything is my fault. MY FAULT. MY FAULT. 24/7 MY FAULT. MINE. MINE.MINE.MINE. *Thanks

You know who you are.

This what all it matters to me

2010-12-26T16:41:00.000+08:00

It's 4.19 pm , Malaysia time. Today's date 26th December 2010. We have only 5 days before new year is here. A new year , a new life that's what people say. 2011 , the start of a new refresh life with a better memory and take whatever opportunity that we have. The ups and downs that we had during 2010 , we will look back as a recap in life and take it as a moral value in life and do better. That's what people say . All of these things is said and done by every each human in life. 2010 is all a turning point of everything that we did and had. All of the sadness and happiness is put in a label called THE BITTERSWEET MEMOIR.

I want to recap everything that happen in my life 2010. And i hope that it won't bore you - i mean the readers of course.
What happen during 2010 is that i learned to live my life to fullest. But not till the fullest , 'cause 2010 i had my SPM exam. Which is Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia , where it is taken for 17 year old kiddo's to make big a step in life which is phasing the adult world - college or work. I had my ups and downs in relationship with friends and whatsoever that happens to be close to me. I had a new kitten. I had ups and downs with my boyfriend , which is now my ex. Yes , we broke up. I know it's sad and heartbroken , but i'm very sure that we'd survive. Hey ! We still 2011 , guys. I had a quarrels with my parents. I had stress-fullness maximum volume in my life. But hey ! What to do ? We live in a world were stress is in very dictionary of every person , we just can't help it. I learned the way to treat people , to see way life in a different perspective. Sometimes talking to my mum as if i'm talking to a stranger. That's what happen , as I grew older - i don't see the way of life that were i was brought up to. Since i was small , i was exposed to different things - kids were playing video games , i was reading books. Kids were laughing , i sat alone in the corner playing my teddy bear. I am an only child. So i'm use to it.

2010. Senior year. MY SENIOR YEAR. Which at all i've never felt like a senior at all. I looked at my juniors and thought that , this is my final year. Just have fun and study till the maximum and make my parents happy with my results. I was in and out in studies for a while now - no kidding. But hey ! We're humans and we do have failure's in life. Without failing , we won't learn anything in life - a saying in humans. On 9th December 2010 , just right after my final paper of SPM - i'm very sure that i'm gonna miss my Convent life for 2 years and miss my high school friends and won't experience the same without them. My class was like a family in form 5. We shared laughter , naughtiness and sadness together. Pn Poh's leaving in 2009 , our little mischief in 2010 with one of our teachers and our classmate who makes us laugh in every moment. And we did share out stress together. 3 weeks before SPM , everybody was busy with themselves. Nobody dared to bother each other cause who might know - a tiger might RAWRRRR to you. Oh well , goodbye senior year in High School.

2011 , hope your nice to me.
Farewell 2010.

Well , excuse me !

2010-12-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

" they love you and care for you. They want the best from you just like i do , and yes i love you " - byfie.

It's 11.05 pm , Malaysia time ; of course. And it's funnayh. I had problems at home today. It's irritating and annoys me. It's Christmas eve here. Tomorrow is Christmas. Too bad that Malaysia does not have kick-boxing day which is on the 26th December - if there was it's like WE SHOP UNTIL WE DROP AND DADDY GOES TSK TSK . Oh well , and yes everybody has a history in the their life.

Daring you makes me wanna kill you

2010-12-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

It's 7.33 pm , Malaysia time. AND MY LIFE IS SO F UP ! MY FREEDOM IS TOTALLY LIKE A BRICK WALL RIGHT BETWEEN ME - AGAIN!

Memaki hamun is the way you when you get mad to me. Letting your anger on me. Shouting and screaming to me is the way you teach me the ways of life.

I have a heart , M.

Mend my broken hear after all

2010-12-20T16:39:00.000+08:00

It's 4.37 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to The Script. And today i got to know and i want you to know - be strong 'cause i'll always be there for you. People change when time ticks every second - in one in a million. I miss you.

This is weird

2010-12-18T17:50:00.000+08:00

It's 5.47 pm , Malaysia time. Currently listening to the Love and Rockets - no new tales to tell.
I just got news that my dad is delaying his thought of buying me an iPod classic , AGAIN ! First i had to wait for a month to have just because i had my SPM on . And now he is delaying it again 'cause my mum wants a netbook (!) Man , what the hell. I have to wait - AGAIN ! GAH ! :O

*i'm ok , and i'll survive. I'll move on in life , no worries folks.

I will never forget you

2010-12-16T16:11:00.000+08:00

After 2 days of coping with my sadness today i'm gonna blog. Me and boyfriend - we broke up. Why ? There's some reason , but i'm not ready to share with it you guys. This break up part is very hard and harsh. I can't stop thinking about him. I love you too much dearly.

No guts and have no game

2010-12-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

It's 11.19 pn , Malaysia time. And some people know what person i am and which group i belong to - weird.
Gonna start get my driving license this week. On Thursday going to hear a 6 hours talk about the law of driving with Lidya and her sister, Nadya.

Somewhere here next to you

2010-12-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

Watched a movie today with my friends. It was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow Part One. The story line was so freaking interesting. But i felt frustrated 'cause end of the movie , as it was part one. Which i have to watch for part two , which is like i have to wait for another year. This is frustrating.

Then came lunch. And i didn't not meant to brag , but humans please with with ethics. I'm sorry , but it this what we are ? People who make mess , so that others don't feel comfortable to sit and eat (?) I hate going to food courts -.-

Could not ever be late

2010-12-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

It's 9.58 pm and SPM is totally over for me. I'm posting like 2 days late due to some circumstances. End of high school and hello to the big world.

Look away has the days past.

2010-12-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

It's 3.45 pm , Malaysia time. And right now i feel so f up. I just got a comment from an anonymous on last post and telling me that the experiment for paper 3 was all time presence of catalyst and not heat of combustion ! Argh , what was on my mind by then ? I'm getting mixed up with some easy stuff and making it more complicated. WTH. Or whatever , i think i'm gonna like have little marks for my paper 3 , but please please give a credit in it ! Or make the graph come down so that it's easy to get a good grade -.-"

I'm watching Twilight for the 5th time now , and i never get bored of it. Where in this place i'm supposed to be studying biology. 'Cause tomorrow paper is biology -.-" I went to sleep like twice already 'cause after all these times , i came to my senses that biology is actually boring -.-" heh. Soory biology-lover. I have 12 more hours - i think - before the paper. THIS IS HARD.

Go Meowww-Garrr

2010-12-06T22:21:00.000+08:00

It's technically 10.14 pm , Malaysia time. And i'm a geek tonight. I have my specs on tonight as my eye sight is getting a bit sore. Going to get contact right after my papers. And gonna color my hair brunette. It's these goals i need to get right after the papers of SPM. The paper - A PAPER - that would cost a lot later.

I had chemistry paper today. Has yesterday post wanted you guys to wish me luck in it. OMG! . My chemistry paper 3 , is so freaking hard. I nearly cried and i think i get only a passing grade for my chemistry. But please please , let the passing mark be credit or super credit. I need to at least get credit on my chemistry and physics in order to be qualified in a course that i wish to pursue after March 2011.

One thing i learned today is that read all chapters ! Never ever ever ever , leave a single topic or sub-topic. 'Cause it's incredibly precious (!). I hate HEAT OF COMBUSTION , heh.

Every little piece of you fits in eventually

2010-12-05T20:27:00.001+08:00

*right this is so F'ed up . I can't even put a photo in this post. This is sick - Whatever.*

It's like 8.14 pm , Malaysia time. I have like another 17 minutes to go before i offline and continue studying chemistry 'cause tomorrow i have chemistry paper going on -.-" I'm half freaking and half acting dead. I'm so f scared to take the paper tomorrow. My heart is beating so fast , and this does not look good.

Saturday
Started my day of being so lazy , wanted to go the library , but nobody had company me. So i had to scribble my thought of going to the library that morning. But yesterday i mean Saturday was so freaking fun ! I persuade my mother to teach how to drive my car i mean the car right after we were on the way back buying the cat food at a nearby shop. So when we arrived at the house compound , my mother got out of the car and we exchanged seats. I was behind the wheels :) ! Then my mother tried to give me direction. Then out of nowhere , she started to freak out and told me " hit the break ! hit the break ! " . And i was like " whyyy ? chill . " She freaked out then she laughed. Then i laughed and in the end she got behind the wheels and i was sitting back at the passenger seat.

But something for sure about driving cars , cars are tremendously heavy ! -.-" Getting behind the wheels of a car is actually hard and you have to pay attention when you a drive car. My lesson is learnt here before actually getting behind the wheels ! Can't for like one more week , this week is end of my SPM papers :D Then the week later I might learn to drive a car with a proper instructor who doesn't go and urge you by saying " hit the break ! hit the break ! " then laugh (?) .

till now and then. Wish me luck.
*And oh yeah , on Saturday i got to know that after all this time my mother wanted to be a police inspector but she wasn't qualified :( awwhh , too bad mummy ! But want to know something ?
Even though my mother did not become a police inspector , she is the greatest mum in the whole wide world :) XoXo.

Living in a world of people

2010-12-03T18:21:00.000+08:00

Hi.
I still have 3 more papers waiting for me. Chemistry , Biology and Literature in English. Then right after that - i can smell freedom :) Freedom i tell you ;) hee. If your wondering how was my papers for this week : my answer to you is my papers were not nice at all . They were mean i tell you and i nearly to cried ! * drama queen *

Today i went to the library , and as far as you guys know : for the form 5 student the library is the new hang out place ;) I studied Chemistry the whole time i was at the library -.-" I covered 3 chapters today ;) YEAY ! Tonight i'm gonna revise the others chapters which is like lot of chapter to go. Whatever.

You want to know something interesting ?
My girlfriend told me that i am " a person that who has originality and doesn't follow people " .
Getting to know about myself from her is quite interesting. I mean i never thought i could bring a big influence to them. As i see myself a girl who just like playing mean and thinks that this world belongs to her. I just knew myself like one year time which i mean - this year. I knew myself. I know what i like. And yesterday i just got a wake up call that " Hey ! i'm a little brat after all ".

And from my point of view. We live in a world of people. Were you wake up not everything seems bright. When you wake up every morning , not every person can get the chance to feel what i feel. Which went i go the kitchen - breakfast is waiting. Not for some people tho, every morning they wake up and feel that this world is not fair. You see ? Humans. Every person of mankind is different. We have ways we think , different in skin colour , different perspective on life , thoughts. And not everyone is the same.

And for me - my perspective is way different from my dad. I think a lot. Just like my dad. As people say " like son like father" . But in my way i say " like daughter like father". And my saying is : everyone gets a chance to feel life. It's either you have the sweet life or the bitter life. Your choice. And to see ways there's always two roads in life. One road will bring you to happiness and the other road my lead to bittersweet. Were bittersweet is the ups and downs in life. And chances were some people take it for granted.

We heart this with you

2010-11-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

It's a Sunday afternoon. Just another Sunday afternoon , where this Sunday i'll be studying for my next 4 papers where i have like 7 more papers to go. This week is Agama , Mathematics , Additional Mathematics and Physics. Physics oh Physics. I'm so freaking out - which i rarely studied , because i'm easily of getting bored. Ergghh - why this lazy pants attitude is like so so with me during these past weeks.

Anyway , my boyfriend just had a surgery. His little brother texted me , awwhh - his little brother is so cute ;) *winks* . Thanks Rizki for telling me about your brother's condition to me. And i think that his whole family knows about me. We've been like 3 years , so yeah i do think so that they know about me dating their son/brother. Oh well , it's a normal thing when you're in a relationship.

I'm back with studying , last post for this week. Hope to write again. See you soon ! *hearts*

I'm falling in and out

2010-11-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

if it's okay if i tell the whole world about us ? That i missed you , missed you lots. Miss your voice , your laugh and your sweet talk - i miss that. Should i also tell them about how i miss you singing to me every night before going to bed ? Should i tell them ? If i tell you it seems a world's end but not that end i mean. I just miss you. And i miss when " you see right thro' me how do you that shitz? " - Nicki Minaj.

this post might be ridiculous , but in a way it reflects who i am and how i think. You might see me as a girl who thinks that the world is made of cotton candies and sweets. But i'm a just a normal girl who sees the world in poverty and people don't a have a heart in stuffs. May i say that this world is unfair. Might be the world of mine where i live in. Not everything seems bright. And not every lights you see is a light of freedom and justice.

Question that are not yet answers

2010-11-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

I did not study at all today. I ended up playing the piano for 2 hours. Tried composing a song that ended up raining , i think that the melody was to sad :( . Oh well. Anyway , it's been a week now. SPM. And no worries peps , i'm still surviving. Wish me luck for another 2 weeks of papers , papers and less paper -.-

I'm mad at you but it's a secret.

2010-11-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

People promise to be kind and generous. But right now it's just the same as you stick to be you and don't even bother whether it's like i should change matter of people and time.

Good Gracious me.

2010-10-31T19:32:00.001+08:00

SPM is like - mhm - 3 weeks till now. And i'm still on the rocks with my science stream subject. I don't want to let my parents down - Oh please , help ! :( What happen to my love life you guys might wonder. Well nothing happen actually - I'm still with him. It's been like nearly 3 years already - and i'm happy with him , thank you :) My cats - they are doing wonderful.

As days past by, i'm so effin' lazy to go to school. SPM is near and i hope dad understand that i don't want to go to school and study. Cause i actually can't at all study ! I want to go to the library , and spend my whole day at the library - where for sure it's quiet and i can study. My dad makes me to go to school. He MAKES me to go to school , which that is the most part i hate about it. And right now , i don't actually fit in this new place where i call not home. I don't know why , but yeah. I don't fit here at all. I think ways differently while others thinks every other person is normal which they are not.

I miss my home. I miss my homies. I miss going out and having good laughs with my best friends. I miss waking up late. I miss everything about Shah Alam. and I miss you.

This is the way things are

2010-10-27T19:49:00.000+08:00

One thing that I noticed today - people are different. We come in different shape and sizes. We have different views on politics. We have different views on the economics. We have different views on social life. But one thing that each human body views the same is love - it's either bitter or sweet.

It's a longlonglongtremondousmightbelonglong update !

2010-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

It's about time that update my blog. Where have i been ? Where have i been ? Oh i went to see the queen ! BAHAHA. Naahh. I was busy with school and I had my SPM Trial . It's been like one month since i updated my blogger- i guess and think so. Anyway what had happen to me these few weeks was :-

I celebrated my birthday with my cousins and aunts this year. Which wasn't actually celebrated - my birthday this year fell on the first day of Raya - and you know when Raya comes people are busy. So yeah - I forgive them.
During Raya i ate like nobody business and i think i gain like 5 kg ! o.O" - i'm going to be fat by the time graduation comes.
Oh talking about graduation - i'm having one in couple of weeks to come. I already got my dress and right now i just need accessories need to be fit the dress - and also a pair of shoes (?) If that Mummy gives a green light and the shoes are on sale ! .
About my love life. well it was interesting. We had a little fight and the end we made up. That is us - cat fight and reunite after couple of hours. This is what you call : I love you no matter what.
About my studies especially my trials for SPM i did O.K - has in OK i scored an average mark and to keep on the track some marks were gaining and some others are loosing. That's why this is the time where i have to study smart. Be wise in answering the questions. Well exams - please be nice.
What had happen more ? mmhhmm .. not much actually. I did alot of photography job after having my Trials. Taking the class photo and the Editorial Board Members. oh yeah not forgetting that i got my self a speedlight and superwide angle (lens camera) for my birthday :D Thank you daddy :))

Well i think it is about it. Talk to see you soon. Ciao :) !

2 in 1 celebration this year

2010-09-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

As you all know raya was on the 10th September 2010. So what a surprise actually - raya had the same date as my birthday ! My seventeen birthday ! My birthday was not celebrated this year but during raya maybe on another day - which is not the day i celebrate my bday -.-" buu-huu. Anyway this year raya is like shit . sorry

We will be a dream

2010-09-09T21:20:00.000+08:00

My cell phone can't stop beeping with greetings of " raya" .

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin :)

I've got to tell you something

2010-09-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

To tell you the truth , dear mate . I'm actually quite envy of my friends that can go out and break their fast together. I can't do that as i have some conditions to handle and i'm pretty pretty sure that my dad won't let me go out has the condition is I must take care of someone that i love the most. The cellphone line is killing me - bloofy hell ate. Me and the boyfriend could not stop arguing on little things that was suppose to get over it. And actually after the little fight is a good to know that everything is okay and you know that in the end he is not actually in the term of " hot and cold". It's really funny sometimes to have a good laugh with your mate even your day ended pretty badly.

Blame the part where i put you in pieces

2010-09-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

This post might be long. So anyway here i goes ;)

I have a mother who has an occupation of a doctor , a teacher , a driver , a lawyer , the fashion police , and a chef. So you see kids , my mother works has a doctor-teacher-driver-lawyer-fashion police - chef. And also my personal assistant , has I am also her personal assistant. Without her, i couldn't even wake up in the morning with a smile even my boyfriend calls me up to say a warm romantic Good Morning. I now Mother's Day has past like a 5 months ago , but this is from my heart to her. And i now that she is strong ;')

So well i've been busy with my exams and everything. And right now, i'm having my 2 weeks break off - Raya is coming up which practically falls on my birthday and also my anniversary with the byfie !

Has i wanted to update my blogger , finding the right picture to suite this post and title - I scrolled down and saw this picture that was taken by my byfie like one year ago. He is so freaking adorable and cute ! ILYSM ;') Plus it brings back the memories that he is really romantic , lovable and caring.

People have nicknames to hid their identity and forget the past

2010-08-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

i was too busy with my reality life that i forgot that i had my social life on the internet too . sorry troops :( !
I had and still having papers for my Trial SPM papers. This Thursday - which i mean next Thursday officially so officially call " freedom-in-only-two-months freedom. 2 months of being free but yet i have to face my revision books and my text books and my tutor books ? no i mean my teachers for help :) hihi.

So today was a lot more than the two past weeks. We went shopping ! :D hihi , I've been waiting for like 2 months to shop ! And yes , today i did that with my parents :) hihi ,

i still have my papers for Biology and Physics. Haisshhh -.-" Typical world with exams ! !@#$%^tfdmjdhdkgp@#$%^ !

See you till then .

and before i forgot - Happy Ramadhan people :) XOXO

ATTENTION:

2010-07-28T19:51:00.000+08:00

As a 17-year old girl like me. There is one dilemma that will always haunt me and you also ( if your a 17 too ) which is SPM. Not love , not having a boyfriend , not getting a life and not having a car (for now) but it's SPM. Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia. Every 17 year old kid in Malaysia must and MUST prepare for the battle called SPM. SPM is a must start during October and ends around November in this 2010 year.

But before sitting the big test which is SPM we have to sit for our trials which is near and near it's like 2 weeks time ! Mother has been blabbing not blabbing actually but a reminder which : GET YOUR BOOK READY AND I REALLY WANT TO SEE YOU GET GOOD GRADES !

How challenging is this ?

It's like preparing for World War III - Sijil Pelajaran Makan - i mean SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA -.-"

GOODBYE.

AND WITH LOTS OF LOVE.

WISH ME LUCK
AND GOODBYE

*BANG*

You better hold on tight , spider monkey

2010-07-25T12:07:00.000+08:00

My body is aching and i'm restless.

I have a life so that's why I did not update my blogger for quite a long time.

My 2 weeks schedule last week, was totally freaking packed . For the whole last week i was staying back on practicing and rehearsing on the big day which was yesterday ( Saturday - 24/6).

My society held an event which was a talent competition and the theme was Halloween. People had fun and surprisingly i was the Emcee of the day with Lean.People responded to my question and yes they were very supporting audiences which made the place more happening. Thank you.

3 more weeks before my trials and i think i'm going to cry.

p:s// i'm going to miss my senior year in an all girls school - surprise (!)

ATTENTION :

2010-07-17T18:22:00.001+08:00

I'm not selected to go to National Service.

i don't have the brains but i can kill you while i play the piano

2010-07-03T12:50:00.000+08:00

I learn faster when i'm playing pop songs and playing one of my favorite piece on the white and black keys. It's already july and i have one more month to go before SPM trial. KILL ME ! -.-" I'm not even ready lah . I got to skip my fun for 3 weeks or 4 weeks or the whole month. STRESS STRESS STRESS IS MAKING ME GLOOMINESS. welll , happy July humans :)

It's not like we're friends or anything

2010-06-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night was so freaking fun.
Me and byfie , Dann were on the phone for 3 hours straight. From 12 until 3 am. And you can say i was an OWL yesterday night :) I was so happy and HYPER ! :B We talked about everything about our dates that we had. Every date has a story - from the first kiss till getting caught and having a little fight - and ended up kiss and make out. You can say that we were one sweet couple were shared a lot of things among the years. XOXO's

Tomorrow school is reopening. I've gotta face my exam results and books. I'm going to be away every weekdays and i'll be back every weekends. Going to have limits in my life - tuition no more skipping. Taking a nap every afternoon for 45 minutes. Finishing all of my homeworks and revising like a robot :| *beep beep* My cellphone will be on only on weekends - call me then. I HATE IT WHEN I"M FACING THE BIGGEST EXAM IN MY LIFE - I HOPE I DON'T HAVE TO FACE IT.

GOODBYE
XOXO

Keep the words to youself hunnay

2010-06-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

Schools about to start. O mi gawd. You see how nowadays times flies quickly ( ! ) Oh my my times flies .

So how did ended my school holidays is like this :
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(not less than 200 words)
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So technically you see " how i ended my school holiday " is an short essay which is blank and hey ! the essay is giving me a 150 marks (!) . Now that what you call REAL marks.

So how did i ended my school holidays is :

i didn't went shopping.
i didn't hang out with my friends and catch a movie.
i studied a bit. ONLY A BIT - which made my mother unsatisfied.
i didn't go to tuition ONLY for additional mathematics.
i talked on the phone with Dann every night and every of the night he will sing to me before going to bed.
Got a new kitten and its name is Princess Malaya. You see how unique is that ? HAHA.
And during the holidays - one thing that was solved which is i think i hate it here -.-" Sorry peps and sorry friends - but i think i don't ever belong here even i put on a happy face and forget that Shah Alam where i should be.

XOXO.

I think i don't like the part that i lived here

2010-06-15T22:34:00.000+08:00

It's been like 8 days , me without my friends hanging out and buzzing around the mall catching a movie. Right ?

You see , there's somethings in my life right now , is changing. THE ATMOSPHERE> I think i hate here. I don't know why. It seems that i can't find the perfect friend here - i MISS my friends back in Shah Alam deadly , i MISS the life in Shah Alam and yes i know that by this school holidays i'll be chilling out with my friends and with my boyfie.

It looks like i'm only here for 2 years just to finish my high school years in an all girls school. Can't be communicating with any boys because that it is the rule of an all girls school - like that they don't do outside of school . They even make out with a boy ! Gawd. Sorry for being a little bitchy here , but it's true. You can't blame the changing of Era's and changing of people.

Even this school holidays , a 2 weeks holiday i can't even go to Shah Alam and hang out with my boyfriend and friends. You see how much i miss them ? It's been a year now , and yes i can't get rid of the memories i have in Shah Alam . I've been there for 15 years - it's like half of my half. And dad just got to move here. It this life what you call ?

I could cry of boredom , nag like a mother , scream like a baby , shout like a crazy person - yet things won't change for me. You see how bored my life is here ? :|

He's singing on top of his lungs ♥

2010-06-10T13:25:00.004+08:00

Yesterday afternoon we had a fight. He acted all so weird , and when he acts like that - i blurted out " Do you have someone else ? ". Then all of a sudden he said " You know what ? I hate it when you say that . Bye ! ". He put down the phone. For 15 minutes , i cried. For that 15 minutes and myself and i and only me it made my world stopped. Because he was pissed and i was being so dramatic all of a sudden. Then later i call him back , and i told him " You shouldn't have raise your voice at me . I was only asking" - with my tearful cries while saying this. And he said " sorry. " And i was sorry too , for being so dramatic on something that i wasn't supposed too. He tried to persuade me that i shouldn't cry because he wasn't supposed to do that - technically he is sorry. So am I.

Then i asked him " sing to me the song that i wish you had sang to me ? " . Then he said " Ok". He sang - " selamat malam sayang" by Faizal Tahir. After he sang , i made a condition. The condition was - he is supposed to sing to me every night before going to sleep. And it was a deal ! :D ngee ♥

Later that night , i called him around 10 pm , and asked him where he was. He was hanging with his friends - as normal. Then ... around 10.30 pm called him back asked him whether he remembered tonight ( 9.06.2010 ) at 12 am - what's the event. And he was like " mhm , yeah i remember. What is it ? ". He was asking me back what was it. I asked him to guess - and he was " yeah , i remember. Sing to you tonight before going to bed. oh wait ! calling tonight - yeah i remember". I was like " noooo , not that. other than that". And he , " yes of course i remember our anniversary" . I giggled on the line , as i said i love you i put down the phone.

Around 11.00 pm , i called him and told him that i'm going to bed and he should call me later at 12 am.

Around 12.27 am , he called me. " Happy anniversary sayang / baby.♥
It's our 2 years 7 months anniversary. That's been long sayang. I love you with all my heart and thank you for everything. " Then we talked and talked for one hour 30 minutes. And sang to me again ! :D hihihi . And this time was special , he asked me to close my eyes while he's singing. Much more better baby. Then later .. as the night were pretty much sweet with sugars and love hearts all around me and him - we ended the night by saying our goodnight love you and kisses and my warning to him " don't you call someone else " . He laughed - we ended the phone call. Last night was the sweetest night ever. i love you baby and always do.

happy anniversary baby - from us being normal friends to being a scandal and later on being a couple. I love you and hope to be forever yours :) 2 years 7 months , still standing strong . ♥

" Kan ku menjadi arjuna dalam mimpi-mimpimu
Kan ku panah tepat ke jiwamu atas nama cintaku
Pari-pari ku utus bawa kau ke sini lagi
Terhapus semua air mata dengan senyuman

Selamat malam sayang , selamat malam kasih. " ♥

25 things suprisingly about me

2010-06-07T22:02:00.003+08:00

1. Sometimes i think that boys are a jerk - sorry.

2. I have six-sense you know why ? because i can feel when something's not right.

3. I kiss my cat every morning before going to school , and Robin like it the most .

4. I shop for handbags , clothes that are not showing off my skin and shoes either heels which are not to tall nor to short. Hey ! I'm tall enough to wear high heels plus i'm not going to make my knee ache.

5. I like to call my boyfriend . Ask him how many times a day i call him . I call him in the morning , afternoon , evening and night.

6. I reply text message in 7 seconds. Mum is shock when - first she ask me to send a text to dad and the next thing she know i'll be watching the TV.

7. I still watch cartoon and eat gummy bears if i have chance to buy it.

8. Dad treats me as if i'm little 5 year old. I still remember he said that i was in standard 5 ! Oh My .

9. I like to read books especially love story that makes me cry when i'm all alone. Even the boyfriend sees me in weird way and says " It's only a book " . A girl-heart what can you predict ?

10. Some of my mum's friend calls me baby .

11. I'm in love with the Nicholas Sparks because of his book - he's a writer. And this writer of BM novel - HLovate.

12. Yes , i read Bahasa novels. I'm trying my best to upgrade my bahasa melayu.

13. I can't guess what will happen to me if my parents were not with me right now.

14. My boyfriend and I are like a 3 year old kid , which likes to fight and have this sweet conversation after a mushy-fight.

15. I miss my boyfriend , getting a hug and a kiss from him.

16. I miss my friends back in Shah Alam especially Sara , Ayu , Mira , Najlaa , Atiq , Anis , Nick , Deena and Qris ♥

17. I hate girls who goes after my boyfriend even they know that he is taken by me !

18. I call myself a dork sometimes because i sit at home and read books.

19. I can online my Facebook for hours and hours and hours non-stop. Call me " i'm-addictive-to-facebook " .

20. I think that Chemistry and English in Literature is toughest subject of the most !!!

21. I like to watch MTV and sometimes it's hard of mum getting over the remote control.

22. I'm not that pretty - and i know that.

23. I hate people talking behind my back just because ____________________ .

24. I love fashion - but dad like to go on budget when it comes to shopping which is frustating.

25. I'm think of getting a new digital camera. Dad is going to kill me -.-"

School holidays assignment

2010-06-07T19:13:00.000+08:00

I've just brought a book , The Last Song ( Nicholas Sparks ). It's the second book that i've brought. I've just started a few pages and i'm thinking that i might fall in love with the book. Just what happen to the first i book i brought which was Dear John. I cried to it and laugh to it.

Even school holidays is only 2 weeks , tuition classes are on - which i might go - i have to study. But still i'm reading a book ! BTW , dad's doesn't know anything about the book i brought - if he knew , he might go " uh-huh. You got yourself book ? When you're going to study then my dear daughter ? " Oh well , dad's and their minds. You can't blame them -_-

I'm worth multi million dollars $$

2010-06-06T15:30:00.000+08:00

it's not like we've just met yesterday. It's not like i've just known you yesterday. It's not like everything i do it's the last. It's not like you're seeing me for the last time. It's not like everyday is the last day we'll be meeting each other. There's a time where people come in one and i'm sure your the one.

3 weeks i had exam - it was suffocating and horrible. I wish that time could be rewind , wind ,wind.

Happy holidays sugars and hunnies ♥ (:

The lover from Klang

2010-06-06T15:04:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG -

My best friend, Qristina she came down to Ipoh !!! So I went to see her yesterday night :) I joined her and her family for dinner. Her parents were so nice and her sister too :) hihihi , so chatted like we use to like the old days. A lot has change in me and her , she looked more pretty and i look more chubby :P HAHHA . But that's not the issue silly ! The issue is - two young girls who never seen each other for 2 years has lost the misses after 2 long years ;)

So it's been ages since you called me

2010-05-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

So a lot of things has been changing nowadays. But not to drastic measure of changing . This is a never too late before getting the right stuff to be done.

Anyway , i have like 3 more papers before finishing my Mid Year Exam . YEAY ! Add maths paper one we're killing me into pieces and i think i suck on my english paper one -.-" I'm going to be dead as soon i get my report card. I never had the time to finish my Literature in English paper. ARRRGGGGHHHH - i'm so pissed. i was about to cry right after my Lit paper ;'( Right from school , straight went to my handphone and called Dann up. He tried to calm me down - thank you baby :')

So yeah , i've been way because i had my exam and too busy studying - but you'll see me updating my Facebook wall :) HAHA . What about you ?

Better for luck

2010-05-08T22:41:00.000+08:00

now , i can update my blogger . Oh well - i've been away for quite some time now and i think it's time so that i update my blogger. Now - what have been happening? Well , my exams are just around the corner. Me and boyfriend are like two couples who are to lovey-dovey-sweet :) My cat is growing bigger and something in life is about to change by time , minutes and seconds. I'm scared - why does this must happen to me ? Thank God , i have him by my side and i like it when he goes " everything is going to be ok , sayang? Let's pray for her alright ? I'll always be here for you sayang " . I'm melting inside.

Today , what i meant was yesterday i'm having a 50-50 flu and a sore throat. I might confirm it by tomorrow or another 2 days. I have tuition tomorrow , and that's the last of extra classes on biology. Tomorrow mother's day - celebrating it with ma and pa right after tuition. Boyfriend is sick - i hope you get well baby. And today - life is changing and i'm counting another 6 years so that she'll be ok ;')

" i love you the way you are even one day you'll see me high above heaven "

Get your own crime honey

2010-05-01T14:18:00.000+08:00

i've been in and out of life just to much. I need to get things in straight and better get my legs to kick me up and study :|

I hate you because you ain't me

2010-04-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i updated my blogger - and i'm very sure but not so sure that you might miss my little crappy stories about me and the life in Ipoh. What happen this week :

i've just joined the editorial magazine board in designing department together with Menuka , Jennifer and Shanu.

acted out the scene of what happen in next in Inspector Calls.

Got pissed after entering the competition in melukis banner for anti-drugs weeks.

me and the boyfriend - we're having a little fight :( Oh baby , how should i know ? :(

And you see the difference between me and you ?

The little champ keeps bugging me

2010-04-10T22:49:00.001+08:00

i don't talk bad about you , so don't even bother thinking that i talk bad about you . alright ?
i don't care if my hair color is not the same as yours .
I don't dare to lay hands on your boyfriend , because i have my own and which i love the most beside from my mum and dad.
i don't care even if you have stupid problem with me - losers.

This week , was a lot of mayhem. Again. With school and homeworks - and by this week Thursday i got exhausted , which is not a good thing actually. I have like 4 weeks before my mid year exam - and right now i feel the world is spinning to to to to fast. Where's the fullstop in our life ? Oh yeah , i remember it's death.
Anyway , today it's our anniversary - our little 2 years and 5 months together. I love you Baby Dann <33

We fight like 3 year old kids - i love you

2010-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

It looks like somebody just tripped on its own poop. Oh well - you can't blame that.
Good Friday - school was off today.
People were busying around the road a lot today.
And i love you , byfie.

And oh , it's been raining lately.
And i walked through the rain this evening .

And people criticize too much in life - i hate you , Big Head Criticizer .

Streets light are twinkling in the road

2010-03-31T21:36:00.001+08:00

Surprised that i'm not updating my blog post with a picture ?
Anyway - i've just studied Physics like 30 minutes ago and additional mathematics like 15 minutes ago. And 45 minutes altogether - i've just gave up doing my physics tuition homework. I'm going to finish it at school with Naddie. Oh , lately everything is on my mind. From my mother till my studies and SPM. I'm crying too easily nowadays. I sometimes keep a distance with my friends - by doing my own work. Maybe it's time that my brain is starting to say - nobody is going to help you , except you on your own , on this journey of being a person that you wish to be later.

I'm worried about mama - she has this sickness which is not confirmed yet by the doctor - she might take some medication or be'll facing the blue room with doctors handing equipments around the room.

I don't know why , but i'm crying inside - which in my heart it hurts. But i still keep on a smile and act that everything's ok. I'm faker , people. A big fat faker.

I'm
Dead.
Good
Bye.

I'm waiting for my cell to beep

2010-03-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

not everyone has a heart like you.
not everyone is pretty like you.
not everyone is better than you.
not everyone swears in front of public.
not everyone goes and make the other one feel like a looser.
not everyone likes you.

Annual sports day is tiring.
Chemistry paper is like poop.
And this week is shit.

Please and Thank you.
And yeah , you do have life don't you ?

Can i have you ?

2010-03-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

I hate when people , criticize others to fast without knowing the person first -.-"

I do want is a BMW car - secondhand car would be ok , daddy :)

I do want to play the guitar.

I do want to play an electric keyboard and get a keyboard.

I do want the play the violin.

And can't you see i have interest in music , it looks like i'm following my mothers side the most.

And now , daddy gives me the opportunity to take music after SPM :-)

And i right now , i don't like to face my piano grade 7 practical next year April -.-"

Midnight Noon i'm gonna catch you

2010-03-19T12:47:00.001+08:00

Hi, i don't know why but i just like to leave my Mc Donald's Sundae cup ice-cream in the fridge for a whole night.
Hi, i've just watch College Road Trip for the 4th time now.
Hi, i'm a fatso. Even my boyfriend admits that and yet he does it in a proper way like " No your fat , your chubby and i love you". - Isn't he just so sweet adorable :)
Hi,i don't know why but i think some girls are pathetic , sorry ladies - as i am a girl too , so it doesn't make much more difference about whose pathetic and whose not.
Hi,i know there's Indie musics , but never thought of Indie movies. What's next - Indie channel?
Hi,i don't know why people talk bad about each other. Is it fun or just for your own " ooooOO .. dark humour " ?
Hi, i know my boyfriend is now what you guy think he is - but still there are girls chasing me which makes me mad and frustrated. He's mine loser.
Hi, i think that this post is just a part of me and it's oooOOOoo .. sarcastic - ing. Oh well , too bad - because you've just read it.

Goodbye my dearest cat :-(

2010-03-17T13:00:00.000+08:00

R.I.P Manja ,
Died this morning , infront of the house. Buried behind the house under the pandan plant.

Dear Manja ,
We're going to miss you so much. The sexiest cat that we have and doesn't like to be hit by Robin Hood - that's you alright. With the high pitch meow , your high pitch meow will be remembered always. The cloth sucking because you were addicted of the cloth and the night that you kept me warm because you were sleeping on me. I'm really going to miss the most. Even if I had hatred you before , i never had hated you actually , you were pretty and you were close to mama. Mama is going to miss you dearly and me - surprised much ? I never knew , that yesterday was you're last goodbye to me. I still remember the first day , that you brought in the family , with the little paws and the cute pink nose - adorable and cute. You were actually stuck under a van that the destination to our house , and the person ask us to keep you , we agreed. The first time , you were like a stupid little kitten and days grew days , and years becomes years till today which is your 1 year and 6 months being with us. Be all your memoirs save with us , i will never forget you the sexy cat a.k.a Chihuahua of Paris Hilton :-( We love you ,

I fainted because you were too sweet

2010-03-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

" Compare that you were like the sun and i was the moon. You shine up in the day while i shine in the night , don't you see that we have something in common : we bright the earth , so that the dark would not win. We might be different but something in common is that we shine one thing which is the earth. And yes i do love you , just like the moon and sun shines :-) "

If i ever see you again

2010-03-15T23:25:00.000+08:00

I got up to early this morning. I was worried about ze boyfriend , Dann. He didn't picked up my calls and replied my text - i called him around 3 am and surprisingly his brother picked up the phone. Had my breakfast and washed my school shoes , shocking? I know, Anyway went to TGV Ipoh and watched Alice In Wonderland with Lidya , Fariza and Praseetha. The movie was a two thumbs up - that's for sure :) I nearly fell down today - embrassing moment. But thank God , it was a only a nearly which is near to fall.
Today i re-decorate my study section in my room. Here's the picture :

Tomorrow well exactly like another 30 minutes till 12 am , it's ze boyfriend Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 18th ze BOYFRIEND , Dann Salleh ! :)
With best wishes and best of luck , i'll pray for you and i love you each and everyday baby :) Your 18 now , hoping your future be well with the person you love . XOXO's .

Someone call me honey 'cause i need sugar

2010-03-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

Mama's in my room and waiting for ze boyfriend to call me - because he has been missing for 5 hours now.
Tomorrow i'm going out , watch a movie - Alice in Wonderland. Would you like to join ? :-)
And yes, i've record a new cover, Scientist by Coldplay, going to download it soon.
Just made a book review for the Departure , the school newspaper.
i can't stop thinking of him - updating my blog.

It's like my mind is full with :
" i love you byfie , i love you , i love you , i love you , i love you "

I love you yet your much more than that

2010-03-13T17:08:00.002+08:00

My fingers are in sparkle and i'm updating my blog eventually. Right now is 1710 , and i don't usually do this 'cause right now i'll be texting and watching tele , which i'm doing it now except the part of texting - which my hands are free from the E63 'cause ze boyfie has headache , and he's trying to calm down with the ache in his head. Can't blame him on it.

Where have i been , oh where have i been. I've been to school , eating the same meal during recess and going to tuition with different subject everyday. Being a SPM candidate this year , kills me. I've done my monthly text papers , and for sure i'm going to loose in the game with the others. Oh i hate that part.Having to take ten subject for SPM papers , i might faint before taking it.

Holidays , oohh ahh the holidays. Alice in Wonderland anyone ? Yeah - i'm going to watch this Monday with my girlfriends. Going to the library and i have tuition. So i'm spending quite splendible.

Ze boyfriend did well in his SPM and trying to take up U . So good luck , baby :-) !

Having little time to go , i'll update it soon .

Just because you called me honey doesn't mean you owe me i have a boyfriend.

2010-03-07T17:34:00.003+08:00

it's been ages till the last post i updated. I'm too busy with my own life - with little stupid problems and also studying for this upcoming exams. My monthly exam is going to be held another 2 days time - it's on Tuesday till Thursday. I hate when exams come , i got to study. I have like a bunch more papers to do - biology , chemistry , additional mathematics, physics , pendidikan islam , literature in english , PJK and sivik. You guys must be wondering where's bm , bi , sejarah paper - well i've did that on a Saturday school .

Right now i'm writing like a pop-corn , one word one pop ! What's been new in life was - i've recicted a peom in front of the class , was about to drop my Literature in English but i didn't , having fights with the boyfriend , boyfriend's SPM results this Thursday , watched Marley & Me for 2 times now - and every time the dog last breathe i cry , watched Rachel's getting married ( eventually) , bought a sandal , and thinking of going to ICOM ; The International College Of Music . And yes this time , with my hair in a mess , waiting for a text message i'll update my blogger right after my monthly test. Wish me luck :)

I happen to be a failure rockstar

2010-02-26T23:03:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile that i've been updated my blogger. Anyway - as you all know , March is coming up , and i think right now the world is spinning to fast and i don't have time to breathe in and out ! Now call 991 anyone , because my exam are so near - i wish that i had a blackberry telling me what's my next schedule. Having a nokia E63 is nothing much different then having a blackberry i guess.

Boyfriend and i , are so much in a little kid fight where i want a teddy. I love you baby :) I chatted with Najlaa and Amira Nasuha - oh yes , in their life right now are so much busy and yet still they are here for me :-) ! Coloured my nails , and typing in my update - tells me that my life is still going on and i'll be updating it soon .

Your my honey bee baby .

2010-02-21T21:24:00.002+08:00

" But my other honey bee , Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be , Oh my darling honey bee , I’ll come save you , Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen " .

Hi . hello .
I have this attitude before i'll update my blog. I'll go to others people blog and see their updates . It's really funny and interesting of people on their think and see ways differently.
Oh God ! It's Sunday . It's SUNDAY ! I repeat it's Sunday . Tomorrow school ! How can times sometimes be unfair to us ? Oh well , homeworks are like " one or two questions more , i'll cheat " . After a one week of doing something - but i can't remember except the day that me and my girlfriends had a photoshoot going on my house. Oh wait ! I still have PJK folio . Just one more assignment to go - it's a folio. My day started with a so early wake up call by Dann . He called me up around 6.45 am - talked and went back to sleep. He woke up at 4 pm while i woke up at 10.30 am - mama was so pissed off by me. Around 11 am mama suggest that me and her take a break and go to JJ has papa wasn't at home. So we did , window shopping and i bought a skirt. Right now , i just need to find a perfect top with it. I need to find a blank white top or a shirt or something that go perfect with it. My two bestfriends birthdays are up :- Fix's and Diba's . I think i forgot about my Best friend's birthday ! Oh god ! i'm really sorry : - anyway , HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMIRA NASUHA ! :D I'm really really for the super duper late wish .

Good girls go to heaven , bad girls go to Paris and shop !

2010-02-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

Yesterday afternoon went to Lumut . We had some event last night. I got tired around 10.30 pm , but the event never stopped. Around 11 pm , we were on are way back home. My slept through out the way back to Ipoh. I was to tired and sleepy. I had a dream and it came true ! Deja vu much i see myself. I've dream about it , saw the people that i saw before - and they looked the same with the same clothes and the same situation. I kept repeating : " Oh no ! Not again . "

Last night , we talked on the phone - it's like sometimes i don't ever think what i wanna say at first. That is so wrong sometimes. Help me someone. Sometimes i'm rational , while some other time i'm not - call 911 darling would you ?

I greet you with a perfect morning smile

2010-02-18T21:29:00.002+08:00

Hi.Hello.Bonjour,while mama went out - i watched Valentine's Day movie. The movie is a cry-hard-die-for-movie i tell you. Taylor Lautner and Taylor Swift are and IS so cute that movie. With having a boyfriend in the athlete team and a dorky girlfriend - they can be an item in school. Oh god ! i wish i had that.
The movie really showed the meaning of love actually. I mean i was so touched by story line. Love can be hurtful , love can be magical but love exist when two people love each other. Sometimes you can be reject by love - but that doesn't mean it's the last. One can experience a lot in love. And i think i'm also expericing now ;;)

I so hate you when you say nothing

2010-02-18T14:01:00.005+08:00

so yesterday i had my friends at my home - we were finishing our civics project. We did a photoshoot at my house - it started at 10.30 am until 12.30 pm. We had so much fun. Mummy cooked chicken rice for us and made pau for our tea time. Thank you mama :)
Yesterday - getting ready for the photoshoot , with the make ups and everything - i felt like we were getting ready for prom night :) hahha ! sorry. Diba , Naddie , Ija , Qila and Fix came. While the others group members couldn't make it - too bad :( . So later that afternoon , after they had their tea at my house , around 4.30 pm , they went back home. While Fix and Diba were still at my house. Then Fix gave and idea of " let's take pictures ! " . Then we went out of the house, went to compound of my house and took pictures - then i gave an idea of let's go to Padang Polo as Padang Polo was near to my house - so ok , we walked and talked , talked , talked.

At Padang Polo , they were little childrenwho were playing kites and bubbles. Oh so darn cute :) HEE. I took pictures , while Fix and Diba were playing pop with the bubbles :) I felt like a little kid again. Then we brought the bubble bottle and played with it. And took pictures of it. Oh it's so fun. Fix's mom called and picked us up at the Padang Polo around 6.45 pm :)

My day ended with so much fun while a had a sprained foot. Ouch!

Send your hearts in a FedEx Box baby

2010-02-14T20:57:00.002+08:00

Oh look it's Valentine's Day today :)

Anyway , this morning headed to Shah Alam to see Grandma , whose quite sick and visiting my auntie in section 13. Got out of the house around 7.30 am and reached there at 10.30 am. Firstly , we first arrived at my Grandma house , saw Sara's gate was opened. Thought of she's not at home , called her up but nobody picked it up. Never mind i thought. Then later , i sent her a message and asked was she at home - and the answer was a yes :) So called her up , and yeah we hanged out just like we use to 1 year ago :) We shared a lot of stories , as we didn't see each other for almost a year now. So yeah - our stories were shared and yes all the laughter too.

Oh well , baby is sweet and romantic. And mama goes " Mesti your boyfriend , Dann sends you a happy Valentine's wish " . WTH .